Well last Wednesday, I finished school, at least high school for now.

I was stoked and got to see a ex the next day at the airport. Needless to say, he’s changed for the best and really making me think. It’s been almost 2 years that we have been best of friends or a couple. I love him with all my heart. He’s deploying soon and I really want to help him while he’s there. I don’t want to rush anything at all. We talked like the best of friends, but the pain that he caused with the abortion is still there. Last night, I was invited to his family Christmas party. His sister had a kid a A MERE WEEK AGO!! I thought I could handle it, knowing I saw her a month before she had him. I really couldn’t.

A lot of people say give him a chance but I paid the ultimate sacrifice to be with him and it hurts twice as much since the anniversary is coming up. I believe he’s really changed. He’s still snippy sometimes but not as bad. When he’s like that, I let him cool down. I’m running when he’s like that, even in the winter with snow and ice.

I never give second chances, but I kinda want a opinion.