So my life right now is krazie i never thought that i would be dealing with all this stuff at the age of 21… i thought i would be chillin going to clubs drinking up a storm and having freedom.. for some reason today it really hit me im a MOM of 2 beautiful daughters and a wife to the most wonderful husband who is way older then me sometimes i have grudges against him because he is going to be 29 in oct and he lived his life at 21 partied and had the time of his life…
im not saying what i did was a mistake i just should of waited…i love my kids dont get me wrong but sometimes i feel like this wasnt ment for me but then again if it wasnt for my kids i would probley dead at some hotel …. ahhh……..i dont know why i feel like this right now maybe im missing my grandma and she should be here watching my kids grow up and she should of been at my wedding if she could of waited another month.. mann im keeping so much in its not even funniee… im at work its only 9:10pm im off at 10pm n i want to go home NOW……….. then i have to wake up at 5am to get ready for school which is another thing that is bugging me ….. i know i can do it but its just so time consuming i could be with my kids …..this is soo kraziee.. who ever is reading this you might be confused because I KNOW IAM!!!!!!
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Hang in there! You can make it and the storm will be behind you. I think the story I recently posted might help… “Scary Beginning, Great Ending”.
As for your feelings about the times your husband experienced when he was younger, I had those times “away at college”, and I now look back on them with regrets and shame. I received an education that has provided me a living, but the other time at school had no lasting positive effect in life. I am older now and see what good could have come with that time… what a waste. So, be careful about thoughts along those lines as it could affect your relationship, and you will find with time that your experience during these years has SO much more meaning and purpose. After 5-10 more years, you will certainly look back and realize this.