losing a child is the most painful thing i could have ever imagined..how could I be such a horrible mother before my child even got the chance to be born? how could i not be more careful? i know it’s my fault, & i feel so terrible…i was planning on bein the best mommy possible for you, i failed before the challenge even began..i love you and i wish we had more time together: time to bond, time to love eachother, time to become a family..