I often wonder what you would’ve looked like.
The absence of your touch feels deadly yet humbling.
The unknown beauty of you mesmerized me from the first time I (never) saw you.
My nightmares are descriptive essays of the love you and I share,
My dreams disturbed by the death of you…
At one point I didn’t think I was going to graduate high school, but I did it.
Now I’m getting ready for college. I finally decided on my major which, unfortunately, the school didn’t have, but the next closest thing is a certificate program in maternal and child health.
I’m so excited and I can’t wait. I want to be a family support worker.
Next time she’ll say no
when they offer beer
Next time she’ll say no
when they offer Jack
Next time that they ask
she is going to say no
she is too young
she is too young
Next time she’ll say no
when they invite her along
Next time she’ll say no
when he touches her chest
Next time that they ask
she is going to say no
she is too young
she is too young
Realty is hitting me… It’s not going to be all sunshiny days and happiness…
I wanna do so much stuff in my life that I can’t do with my baby…and I realize that I can’t give her all that I want to give her… I was looking at the adoption boards at church and there are a lot of families that can’t have a baby…I was thinking about the wonderful gift I could give them…I also thought of how much joy my little brother brought to our family when we adopted him 10 years ago…
I think I’m gonna pray and see what God wants me to do… I talked to my boyfriend about it and he likes the idea… I have hope in this… There are so many families that can give my Layla a wonderful life!!
Hello Hello Hello Standupgirl-ians. Here I am taking the afternoon off from parenthood.
My Ball of Energy is with her Nana for the day, which I suspect won’t actually be the full day since my mother can’t handle Miss Bouncy Pants for that long. (She’s called five times since 9:00) Don’t get me wrong, I’m thankful for my mother even suggesting taking my daughter for any length of time. Truth be told, my mother was never the “mothering” type. My sister and I were raised by a nanny while my mother enjoyed outings with the girls. So, I am thankful she is taking an interest in my daughter.
Anyone out there in SUG world have a similar story? I’d be interested.
When I was 18, I found out that I was two months pregnant.
At first, it didn’t hit me that I was no longer just supporting myself, I had to bring a child up in the world. I was with the baby’s dad for two years. I thought I was in love, When he found out, he pressured me into getting an abortion. He said that if I loved him, I would do that for him. He even went to my parents and talked to them to see if they would support his decision and of course, they thought it would be best. I ended up getting it done, and to this day I regret my decision of going through with it and giving up my baby. My boyfriend left me at 3 months pregnant and so I felt like I had nobody. I went back to school and found an amazing guy who understands me and treats me well. He agrees that one day, I will have another try at being a mom.
I was not ready and I try to be strong, but there are times that I just sit down and cry my eyes out, but I know one day, I will get to see my baby…
Momma loves you, baby.
