realty is hitting me..its not going to be all sunnshiny days and happyness..i wanna do so much stuff in my life that i cant do with my baby…and i relize that i cant give her all that i want to give here…i was looking at the adoptson bords at church and there r alot of familys that cant have a baby…i was thinking about the wonderful gift i could give them…i also thought of how much joy john brought to our family when we adopted him 10 years ago…i think im gonna pray and see what god  wonts me to do..i talked to my boyfriend about it and he likes the idea..i have hope in this…there r so manny family that can give my layla a wonderfull life!!