I work in a family restaurant. Many families consist of babies. So I usually see at least one baby a day.
Since I have had an abortion, seeing babies is very hard for me, I feel a pain in my heart that just won’t go away. But this past week has been especially hard for me, and today was no fun. I was walking through the restaurant, all the while talking to a boy who I was training, when I made eye contact with one of the cutest babies I had ever seen. He had these huge blue eyes that seemed to be looking right into my soul. I literally stopped in my path and stared at this baby for nearly a minute when the boy I was training brought me back to reality. I apologized to him and to the parents who had noticed how I was staring at their child. Then I ran into the back and locked myself in the bathroom. I fell on the floor and began sobbing hysterically. I knew people would be able to hear me, and most would think I was some insane girl crying in the bathroom. But I just couldn’t help it. As soon as I saw that baby images from the sonogram popped into my head and I couldn’t help it.
I’m so sorry, baby. I wish I would have let you grow. I wish I could have held you in my arms.
I haven’t been on here since January when i had just found out i was pregnant at 14 years old and i didn’t know what to do, well since then i had my handsome little boy on September 15th 7pounds 8ounces at 6:17am his name is Blade Alexander Borden i love him with all my heart i cant imagine how my life would be without him <3 … I’m not with the father anymore due to his lack of responsibility and the fact that he is an xxxhole, but I’m fine without him i have plenty of help from my mom and my older sister who is 18 and is having her first baby in April =) I’m very happy for her.. so this is what has been going on for the past months that i haven’t been on and i want to send my love out to all the girls who are feeling down, don’t feel like you can do it, or really want to… you can do anything you set your mind to, i did and I’m so happy about it
one love everybody <3 😉
Hi, I am having my second baby and I am just scared because last pregnancy, my partner used to drink all the time.
I always felt really left out because well, we made a baby and now that I was pregnant, I had to give up a lot of things like alcohol, my body, smokes, and certain foods. I had back pain and I had to go through labor and he didn’t give up anything. I used to ask him just to not drink while I was pregnant. He could drink on his birthday and New Year’s. I didn’t mind but I wanted him to just give up on this one thing and he didn’t. Anyway, one night, his friend came around to drink and I was really sick with the flu or something and I was finding it really hard to breathe and he went down the pub even though I pleaded with him not to. Anyway, his mum had to take me to hospital because when I lay down, I couldn’t breathe properly. He then got really scared and said sorry, but still drank. He is not an alcoholic and would only drink every couple of weeks. I just am wondering if it’s normal for me to feel like this or if am I just being selfish??? During this pregnancy, he has been really great. I am 18 weeks and he only drank 6 Jim Beans yesterday because it was his birthday. He has his work dinner today and him drinking of that is stressing me out because this time of the year is when people pressure him to drink to celebrate New Year’s or Christmas or WHATEVER!!!
Hmm, please just tell me your thoughts.
Do any of you struggle with cutting?
Bright crimson red flows from her precious skin… A token of pain’s sweet embrace.
Darkness grips her stained glass heart again, as well-known tears kiss her joyless face.
Smooth as the writer’s loveliest pen, the blade creatively writes its song.
Of regret and pain, of love and hate. A life void of hope for so long.
The blood seems to ease the numbness for a moment, much like drops of rain quench a dying plant’s thirst.
But one drop of rain is never enough. And this scarring slash is only the first.
Hey, my baby has been in me for 2 months now and it is still growing.
I’m really happy. I don’t know if it’s a boy or a girl, but I’m hoping a little girl or boy. 😛
XXX Byee
I am 15 years old and my boyfriend is 17, going on 18.
My mother doesn’t know I’m talking to someone that old. Should I tell her? But I’m having this weird change in my body and I don’t know what to do. Today, the change was that my breasts were leaking milk. Whoa, that was too much for me…
I am so scared of the possibilities.
