Hey, I’m 17 years old and I’m 3 months pregnant.
I am afraid to tell it to my mom because she expects too much from me. I am her only daughter being raised alone. I haven’t met my dad ever since the day that I was born. I am a first-year college student in a private school and have good grades.
I am so confused if I will have an abortion though my boyfriend didn’t leave me when I told him about that.
I remember each second of that night each time I try to forget the pain and memory of that time it is still there
I remember when you got on top of me and held me down and even though I screamed for help nobody came now I live with it each day of my life I try to remember it was not my fault but still deep inside I think it was How could you take something from me that was not yours to take How could you sleep at night knowing that I can’t How could you of raped me and pretend you never did
How can I cope with it when I know I can’t??????
Innocent eyes and sweet laughter, now vacant and empty
Staring into a dark void
Hot tears on my pillow
Scared to fight, Too young to understand
Cold hands everywhere, holding, touching, hurting
Rape and perversion
Blood, sweat, on my clothes
Hatred, confusion, disgust
Night after night, week after week, year after year
No longer a child, only an object
Silence, no dreams, no sleep
So many missing years
So many forgotten memories
All virtue, goodness, happiness gone
Childhood stolen, innocence murdered
Only pain and sadness remained
The child is gone, the child is dead
Nothing else remains.
When I found out I was pregnant, I was terrified, but not surprised in the least.
Me and my boyfriend should have been more careful, so we take full responsibility but I`m finding myself more and more down. Like, so much is going to change and it’s just become way too much like juggling my very last semester, work. I just stopped my guitar lessons. And all the emotions of the pregnancy as it is. I have friends, but I`m starting to find which ones are my true friends, the ones that are really there when you need them. And I went from a lot to like 6.
What can I do to put myself in a more optimistic mood? Anybody got advice for me?
Well, I’m 25. Me and my boyfriend are almost 8 months together. He was my long-lost love and we got back together.
But now the other issue is that he has a son with another girl and this girl is giving him a hard time. She doesn’t want him to see his child, so he is still fighting in court for his son. So in the meantime, I did get pregnant with his child and he didn’t want the child so I had an abortion because he was very mad, I also had 4 other abortions before this one. So I am a little touchy about babies and everyone getting married and pregnant, I also want this but he is always fighting with me about everything, including making food. I’m doing everything wrong. He also at the same time says he loves me and wants to marry me and have a child. But then again, he says he and his son’s stuff is not sorted out yet, “and that can take 2 to 3 years”. Now the new problem is I think I’m pregnant again, and I don’t want to go through another abortion and I already have depression. And I’m so scared to talk to him about it. I’m afraid he’s going to fight with me again. I am on birth control pills but something is not normal and it feels like I could be pregnant.
I don’t know what to do or to who I can talk to. I’m already so afraid of him. I’m even scared I’m going to do something wrong so I try to do everything correctly the way he wants it, but always he still fights with me about something else that I did wrong. Please could you help me with answers? I can’t really talk to anyone because if he finds out I’m scared, he will fight with me because I’m making our problem other people’s problem. Please Help!
I feel alone… I almost can’t stand how alone I feel…
It’s like my heart is broken… My closest friends just up and left the moment they found out I’m pregnant. I mean some were already drifting away, but it was like when they found out it was like the perfect excuse to leave, and now I feel like I have no one… I should be happy I’m going to be a mom and have a beautiful baby… But instead, I sit in my room… all day… crying at night.. just feeling alone. Yes, I have my boyfriend and my family and they try to help, but I just feel alone…. I don’t talk to anyone anymore. I don’t have friends. I don’t do anything because I’m never invited anymore and they never text or call me back… It’s like no one wants to hang out with the pregnant girl… I feel like the outsider. No offense, but I feel like the kid that gets picked last… or that no one wants on their team… All I do is cry at night and it’s just hard,…
I’m just soo lonely…. it feels like it’s breaking me down,,.
