wow this was unexpected

I’m fourteen. My birthday is on September 12th soo I’m soon turning 15.

I have just found out that I’m gonna have a baby :/ & I’m nervous, verry alone. As far as the father, he doesn’t know (yet). I’m scared to tell him. He says he’s not ready for a baby yet. I know I will keep him/her & I really want the dad in my life, but that’s his choice. I’m two months as of last Thursday. The baby will be born on April 16th if all goes well 😀 I’m excited as well as scared. I came here to get opinions & support so I’ll do the same in return.

Thanks.

Happy I Did..

I got pregnant when I was 16.

Me and my boyfriend couldn’t of been happier, which is more than I can say about everyone else. Most people thought it was a bad idea that I keep my baby because I was so young and had ‘everything going for me’ like college, etc. and had my whole life ahead of me. Everyone had their own opinion to what I should do but me and my boyfriend had already made our minds up that we were keeping our baby, but didn’t tell anyone at first. But as my pregnancy progressed, everyone got used to the idea and got generally excited, especially after we heard his heartbeat and went to the first scan. I must admit, I was really worried about being a young mum and thought over my options quite a bit.

But now, when I look at my baby boy’s smiley little face, I’m sooooo, soooo, sooooo happy that I choose to have him. I made the right choice even when he’s up at 2 am in the morning, crying his eyes out, and I have to drag myself out of bed to make up his bottles. I have to smile and thank God for giving me something so special. Everyone loves him to bits and are glad that we’ve got him. I cant imagine my life without him now. He means the world to me and I know things can only get better from here 🙂

Back To School

Going back to school was much easier than I had originally expected it to be. I’ve been back for eight days now I think but it still pretty much sucks already.

I hate getting up early every day, and I have tons of homework because of my lack of study halls and honors classes. I’m super happy about having two classes with my boyfriend, art and chorus, and nobody gives me any crap at all. Of course, I’m only one of three girls pregnant in my school and several others have babies. We’re not the most well-behaved school, to say the least, lol.

I’ve already started my first art project and it’s going to be this cute little weave with pink, yellow, and light green colors. I wanted to write Izabella or Izabella Jean on it but that’s way too complicated for me.

3rd round in my fight for life

I’m getting pissed off lately. It feels like I’m going in circles.

Constantly working, not stopping for a single nap. I’m sleep-deprived, hungry, and just plain sore. Today is my well-deserved day off so it’s gonna be used for sleep. Last night was perfect for me: homemade soul food and an old Black and white movie. So if all goes as planned, I’m gonna quit both jobs soon.

I got my friend coming on the 20th and he’s staying here for 2 weeks. I should actually be cleaning my room. I’m gonna take a break from enlisting options soon too. I’m gonna wait 4 years so I can get my degree on my own, then enlist, hopefully Marines. Not unless within that time i get pregnant then I won’t. Getting my JROTC uniform together slowly. We’re getting fitted for jackets next week and Monday, we’re getting our pants. I’ve got everything else, though.

Well, off to my chores, good morning, good afternoon, and good night.

confused and angry

I am 30-something, have an advanced degree, a great guy (not married but together for a long time), and recently got a new job which will start in 2 weeks.

4 days ago, I found out I was pregnant, which is something I have actually wanted for a long time, but not now…. I am on a roll-a-coaster ride at the moment, wanting to keep this baby and wanting to end the pregnancy.  Mostly because I do have this new job and because maternity benefits in this country suck. The guy said he will support me no matter what I decide to do, will even move with me if that is what I want.

I don’t know what I want and I really wish someone could tell me this is normal.