I don’t want to be here anymore. No one understands how hard it is to kill your own child. I just want them back. She would’ve been born now, in my arms as I type, and I would’ve been telling you all about her.
Praying everyday that I don’t get my period. then crying my heart out when I do, it’s no way to live. But I’m not ready to let go of my baby. I still have her photo. I’ll never be able to get rid of it. Never. It’s the last thing I have of her. I’m thinking of getting a tattoo with her name written across my chest so that she’ll always be close to my heart wherever I go.
You know what hurts the most? Missing my baby so much that I want to die. and knowing I’ll never see her ever. It’s the worst feeling in the world.
I just feel like I’m not worth anything anymore, am I? To everyone else in the world, I’m just some teenage trash who got pregnant and had an abortion. You know when I first found out i was pregnant, I was so ashamed of myself. I instantly thought of what my nana would think of what everyone would think. Not once did I think about myself and my baby. When I went to the abortion clinic for my first appointment and saw my baby on the screen and her little heart beat that was when it hit me
I had a baby growing inside of me. And she was beautiful. I changed my mind. I wanted to keep her so bad. But my boyfriend told me no. So I had the abortion and I’ve lived in pain everyday since.
I found out I was pregnant about 4 or 5 weeks ago. I am right now about 9 weeks.
It’s been very crazy, and seems like things are starting to get back to normal. I have so many choices to make in the next few months that will change everything. I told my parents about my baby. At first, they were disappointed but they’re now the most supportive people. My grandma, on the other hand, it’s hard, it’s weird, but we’re all working through it. My boyfriend has been helping a lot too even though we fight about everything. It seems like all he does is work and we don’t see each other as much as we used to. It kind of hurts to not see my baby’s daddy and the love of my life. But once this baby is born, he will be around a lot more. I just hope that all this fighting doesn’t hurt us. I love him so much and this little baby growing inside of me is a blessing. In the end, I think things will turn out right. Tomorrow is my first doctor visit and I’m very scared to see what happens. I have to go into cyber school soon but I don’t know if I really wanna do that…..
Well, I got to go!!
I am young and in love… I have promised myself not to have sex until I was married but that promise failed.
Well, now I am two weeks late and I don’t know what to do. I have a whole life ahead of me and I don’t want to ruin it but I also don’t wanna kill my first child. WEll, my boyfriend was excited and upset at the same time, and he’s up for whatever I wanna do. I haven’t told my family yet because right now, I don’t know how to tell them… I know that they are going to be upset with me because I was anointed and very gifted but sometimes I can’t help my actions. I have never been through this before and all I need is some encouraging words and people that have already been through the same thing I’m going through to help me out…
UGH, I’m so confused.
I met my boyfriend in August last year. We became very close within a short period of time, and have been dating now almost 10 months. On our 5-month anniversary, he proposed to me.
I’ve never felt this way about anyone before. I’ve been through so much this year and he’s the only one that truly understands and has been there by my side. He’s the only guy that’s ever actually treated me right.
A few weeks after he proposed, we had sex for the first time [we were both virgins]. A week or two later, I noticed some light spotting… I’m now 16 weeks and 4 days pregnant. My fiancé is overly excited about being a dad, he’s 17 and has a good-paying job so he’ll be able to support us. I have very mixed emotions about all this.
I’m very young to be having a baby, but I’m very mature for my age, I’m not just a wreck-less teenager. I’m a straight A student, don’t go out and party, LOVE kids, don’t drink or smoke. I have goals set for myself, that I plan to achieve. And I truly am in love with the baby’s dad, he means the world to me. I have him to thank for me even still being here. I couldn’t have gone through everything this year without him.
I’m 20 years old and I had only been dating my boyfriend for less than two months when I found out I was pregnant.
Coming from a Christian family, I didn’t want to tell my parents so I did think about aborting it but after finding this site and reading other gurls’ stories, I changed my mind. It also turned out my boyfriend wanted to keep it all along. And my parents handled the news better than I thought.
I am currently 8 weeks pregnant and my boyfriend and his family have been amazingly supportive.
Tonight for me was once again reliving my daughter’s pain that her biological father is not here.
As a mom, there is nothing worse than your child crying and you look into their eyes and you just see they are in pain and there is nothing you can do about it. You can give those words of encouragement and hug them as only a mom can do, but it still isn’t good enough. I would take her pain times a million if given the chance. The pain that she feels is rejection and she has a hard time trusting and loving because she feels everyone is going to do what her dad has done to her. Somehow this man, her father, has done nothing for her and lives thousands of miles away but still he is hurting my baby. Because he is not here.
Now I in no shape or form want for him to be here, it has been two and a half years. We were together for 8 years and I thought like most teens that we would be together forever. I am happier today then I have ever been, I am engaged and with a man that is a wonderful role model for my daughter. However, for her to wrap her mind around that is very difficult. If she loves my fiancé, she feels she is betraying her father and if she opens herself up, she fears he too will leave. My five and a half year old knows what rejection feels like and tells me she is afraid my fiancé will leave too. As a mom, I wish my daughter would know only what love is. At five, you are not supposed to have to swallow and accept rejection and trust issues.
The reason I am writing this tonight is I want for every girl thinking of planning to get pregnant and is not married to please reconsider. Not having a mom and dad together does hurt children. Not for a day or a month, but for years, maybe even their whole life. Having a child (planning it) is selfish. I know most girls swear they will be with their boyfriend forever but you don’t know that. In fact, the chance that you will be is very slim. Who you love now, you may not love 5 years from now because you will not be the same person. As an adult, you could get over your partner, but children do not.
SO I FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART, I’M TELLING YOU WAIT UNTIL YOU’RE MARRIED AND ARE WITH MR. RIGHT FOR THE CHILD’S SAKE.
