Here I was, a 19-year-old with an amazing boyfriend that I have been with for over a year. We were both having a hard time paying bills and even eating sometimes. The only thing I could save money for was birth control. I have been on birth control for 6 years!!!! And in August, I find out I’m pregnant.
We decided we could not afford a baby. That there would be no way we could afford diapers, an apartment, food for us, and everything else. We decided we needed to get an abortion. I was so scared, mainly cause I wasn’t sure I could do it. But I decided it was best for all of us. So I did it. And I never looked back. Some people say it changes your life. But for me, I never really thought about it. I never cried I never wondered if I had done the right thing. I was just glad it was over. It was like it never happened. Now in November, I find out I’m pregnant AGAIN!!!!!! I used birth control and condoms. How does that happen? It means I got pregnant the first week I had sex again! How does that work? I guess abstinence really is the only way. But this time I cried and I’M freaking out and I don’t think I can do that again. But I’m not any better off. I’m more financially in the hole from paying for the first abortion. I don’t know what to do.
Part of me thinks I’m just meant to have a child now. But I don’t think I will be a good mother now. I have not told my boyfriend this time because the first one took a lot out of him. More than it did me. And Im afraid he cant handle it. He was so wonderful the first time, I feel bad. So here I am debating if I can even afford to have another abortion?!?!?!?! Or if I even want one?!?!?!
Four weeks ago I found out that I was pregnant! My partner and I were so good I was on the pill and we were safe. Well guess what girls its not safe 100% because I fell into that 1%. I swear I did not miss a pill or anything.
It took ages to find out how far away I was because I was on the pill they didn’t know. It took quite a few blood test but still couldn’t find out how far away I was. We were deciding to keep it and my partner was right their beside me to support me. Then all of a sudden my thoughts changed. I can’t do this emotionally and I had drunk so much lately. The doctor said to me that I was more than six weeks. Every week of those six weeks I had drunk so much that I was scared that something was going to be wrong with the baby. The doctor said I was fine then I found out 3 cases that the women had one glass of an alcohol drink and their baby was disabled. I have know problems in having a disabled kid as that does not bother me but at this age! Just not fare on the baby and me.
That day came and yes I did follow through with it. No I do not hate my self as all I can say is ” I made the best decision I could at this time in my life” ! The worst part of the abortion I think is, having the ultra sound! Seeing that little thing growing inside me.
Now I still think about things alot and am going to have councelling as I think I need it. To all the girls out there I hope this helps you on your decision and remmber this will properly be one of the most biggest decisions you will make in your life so take your time =)
I am only 16 years old and pregnant. It would of never happened if I stayed home and didn’t go to the party, but it did and now I have to face the consequences.
Lets start at the beginning. I was hanging out with one of my guy friends and he asked if I’d like to go to a party with him. The party was in Mountain Home and it was at one of his friend’s house. I said sure, I’d go with him. I knew I should have stayed home, but I didn’t want to look like a nerd to my friend, so I went. Mind you, I was still a virgin at the time.
We got there and he went to get us a couple of drinks. I asked if it was none alcoholic and he said yes it was. Turns out it wasn’t. So I got drunk, but not on purpose. His friend’s cousin that was visiting from out of state started to talk to me. Then it progressed into flirting. Then all of a sudden, we were making out. Next thing I knew, he took my hand and led me to the bedroom he was staying in. I knew what was going to happen next. My head was telling me no, but my body was telling me to go for it. So we had sex.
Next day, I thought nothing of it. Then a few days later, I noticed my period was late. Six weeks later, I take a pregnancy test and low and behold, I turn out to be pregnant. I thought to myself how could this happen when we only did it one time?
I didn’t know the name of the father. So I asked my friend , who asked his friend and learned it. I don’t know his last name. My friend explained the situation to his friend. He in turn told his cousin. So his cousin called me to confirm if the story of me being pregnant was true. I told him it was.
The next thing I knew, he was saying he didn’t want anything to do with me or the baby. I told his cousin this and all his cousin had to say was that it was best for me to get an abortion and to never tell any one about it.
So I’m pregnant and still in high school. I’m scared because I don’t want to raise this baby on my own without the father. I know I have my friends and family behind me, but its still not the same as having the baby’s father there for me and the child.
I don’t know what to do. I’m thinking abortion is my only option to my situation. I don’t know if I’m ready. If there is any one out there that can give me advice or at least a helpful suggestion or another solution instead of abortion, I would really be grateful. Please help me.
The fear in me is far too great.
Wishing that it’s not true of what it shall not be
Knowing if I am
Just has me think what’s going to happen to me.
What will she think of me after I tell her?
I could really use help!!! I just found out I’m pregnant. I’m 19.
It’s not very young but I am in college and have plans of going to med school. I want to keep the baby so much but the father wants me to have an abortion immediately and if I don’t, he will have nothing to do with me… I don’t even want money from him. I just want him to be around. I have hit depression. I made an appointment to have an abortion but really don’t want to do it… My friends are begging me to keep it… My mother doesn’t know yet and I don’t want to tell her until I know what I’m going to do…
I know lots of girls who have had babies young but I know none that have been completely alone… I’m a very strong person but I don’t think I’m strong enough to have a baby all alone… What if the baby hates me for having it in such a terrible situation?? Single mom with a father that wanted him/her killed?
If anyone has any advice, please help talk me out of going through with it. It sounds dumb, but I feel so helpless with no way of standing up for myself… I want to keep the baby so bad but I keep hearing the father’s words he said to me… Telling me that I should be killed along with the baby…….
OK, I feel so empty inside.
I have been kicked out my house because my mother hates me. I think I’m pregnant. I have not had a regular period since August. I had a short period Oct 8-11. I’m not with the guy and when I told him I might be pregnant, he said I used a condom. Wow, that really made me feel better. My heart is broken into a million pieces. In some way, I really want this baby because it will be the one person in the world who will love me unconditionally. Is that wrong?
God, I am 19 years old. I work two jobs and I’m a sophomore in college. Why do I deserve the things that I go through!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sincerely,
Mizz Undastood
