OK, I feel so empty inside.
I have been kicked out my house because my mother hates me. I think I’m pregnant. I have not had a regular period since August. I had a short period Oct 8-11. I’m not with the guy and when I told him I might be pregnant, he said I used a condom. Wow, that really made me feel better. My heart is broken into a million pieces. In some way, I really want this baby because it will be the one person in the world who will love me unconditionally. Is that wrong?
God, I am 19 years old. I work two jobs and I’m a sophomore in college. Why do I deserve the things that I go through!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sincerely,
Mizz Undastood
Feb. – Finding out you’re pregnant is a real shock. I was with my partner for 3 and a half years so I thought it would be OK, considering we were both 20 in work and had a great relationship… I was so wrong. The guy that I knew and loved had turned into a monster. He told me I would ruin his life if I went through with the pregnancy. Me personally don’t really believe in abortion. However, he had managed to manipulate and use reverse psychology on me until my beliefs didn’t exist anymore.
A few weeks later, I went to book a day for termination. Had to have a consultation as to reasons why I didn’t want to go through with it… they had to do a scan. I was 8 weeks at the time and saw my little tiny baby inside of me. Was determined that I wasn’t going to let that change my mind. The date was booked. I was given leaflets on the types of procedures to read up on b4 I was to come back. They were all scary to me but fortunately, I’m strong and brave!
March – The day was here. My partner came with me and said its for the best. Checked in at the place and had to sit in the waiting room. My God, it was so depressing. They was women just sitting there, looking worried and scared as if it was the end of the world. I had that feeling that I wasn’t supposed to be here. Something was telling I’m in the wrong place. I told my partner and he was like “why you telling me this now for? It nearly time 4 you to go in”.
I sat there with tears trickling down my face… A voice said, “Come, let’s go”
My partner took me by the hand, grabbed my bag, and once again, said we’re going. We told the reception that we’d changed our mind and headed back to the car where we both broke down.
About a week later – My partner was a monster again, back to square 1 of not wanting me to go through with the pregnancy. At that point, I had the support of good friends and family that would be there for me. I had made my mind up…. I was keeping this baby.
There even was a point where my partner was begging me not to but I remained strong and stuck to my decision.
One day, I had enough of him going on and on and upsetting me, So I called up the same clinic and re-booked an appointment. I would’ve been alone this time but didn’t care. I told him I had a new appointment and doing it because of him.
It was left at that until a day b4 the appointment when he told me that he wants to try and have a go at this family thing. I felt so relieved coz i knew I would’ve regretted an abortion and probably end up hating my partner.
So I’m pregnant. I’m 13 weeks and 5 days, had my first ultrasound done on Friday the 14th of November. I saw the baby; its arms, its legs, everything. Heard its heartbeat.. which was at 164 bpm… Wow so high, haha.
Everything is going great with the families now- Everyone is already getting excited, buying baby things and that woohoo, I can’t wait till my baby shower!!!
Will try to keep this blog updated from now on 😉
Hey I’m 16 and I’m in love with the guy that my parents hate… And yes, I’m pregnant by him.
On November 1 2008, I went to the abortion clinic to end my pregnancy. 🙁
I was so happy when I found out that I was pregnant but yet at the same time, I knew my boyfriend was gunna say abortion. I was so upset. It hurt me so bad to know that he didn’t want to keep it. He was trying to explain to me our financial situation and that we just can’t do it right now. And I mean trust me, I understand but still, it hurts. I didn’t want to kill my innocent child. It didn’t do anything wrong. I loved it already. I was so attached. Especially because since I was 15, I thought that having a baby would never happen to me. But It did.
I went to the place and I waited several hours. I saw the sonogram, my baby was so small, so incredible. Then I took a painkiller. They told me it would help with the pain. They told me that it wouldn’t hurt so bad. But oh my God did they lie. It was the worst pain I’ve ever felt in my life. I couldn’t believe it. I was crying the moment they hooked me up to the machine. It started sucking, and I felt my baby come out of me. I was crying so bad I couldn’t breathe.
My boyfriend was right there by my side, holding my hand, and rubbing my shoulder but inside, I felt like he couldn’t wait till it was dead.
It was the worst experience of my life. I hated it. I can’t believe I actually did it.
I’m on birth control now but I’ll say right now that if I happen to get pregnant again, I will never have an abortion again. I will keep my baby, no matter the situation.
Hello everyone. This is my very first blog on Stand Up Girl. I don’t even know if anyone’s going to ever read this, but I’ll write it anyways.
I’m 18 years old and I live in Jersey. I’m a college student. Right now, I’m single and looking for that “right” person… whatever that means. I’ve always been “little miss independent” and now I’m ready to let my guard down and let people into my life.
By this point, I guess a lot of you are wondering what I’m doing on this site. Clearly, this site is for teen mothers or soon-to-be moms. Well, I don’t really know what I’m doing here either. It’s just that for a long time now, I’ve been dreaming about becoming a mother and I can’t really shake off the thought. I’ve spent all my life around children and I just can’t wait to have some of my own. I can only imagine what it feels like to create a life and then to hold that life in your arms. There’s nothing greater or more amazing than that. Well, I’m still young and I’m in no rush to do anything but I would definitely like to have my first child by the time I’m 23. I don’t think being a young mother makes you a bad mother. My grandmother had my mom when she was 16 and she was an amazing mother and she had 7 more children before reaching 30 and they all turned out great. They all went to college and have good jobs so it’s possible.
I commend all you young mothers out there for choosing to raise your children.
