I’m sitting here watching SpongeBob SquarePants, waiting for da boyfriend to wake up. He’s taking me to the GP this morning. I should probably see a GYN soon too. It’s about time for a full check-up… But all that aside, I have butterflies in my tummy again and my mind is racing. I might be pregnant, I don’t know. I don’t want to get my hopes up again.
I had a pregnancy scare in July, not that it was all that scary… I was actually hoping that the tests would be positive. I was experiencing ALL the symptoms I’d experienced before and AF was a whole week late BUT the first HPT was a BFN. I was heartbroken. AF stayed away for ANOTHER week and I thought that I’d tested too early BUT with my luck, this one was a BFN too. A few days later, AF showed up. Again, completely devastated.
I HATE AF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyway, I’m just worried the same thing is going to happen again now. I’ve tried telling myself that being pregnant is NOT a possibility, but I can’t help but hold out a little hope that I might be a mother again! Last night, da boyfriend also asked if I might be pregnant (I know he doesn’t want a baby right now, even though we could easily afford it). I felt like smacking him. Because if no one verbalizes what I’m thinking, it should be fine, or at least I’ll cope better with another negative test, because I know a BFP is virtually impossible, even though on another level I’m hoping for it…. Does that even make any sense?
I can’t handle another disappointment, it’s such a big set back for me, personally. I try to get over it quickly, telling myself that when the time is right everything will happen the way it’s supposed to but it’s not that final.
Anyhoo, I’m off to be disappointed AGAIN!!!!!!
Hi, I’m telling you my experience that I went through as I had my termination.
Weeks ago, I had to make the hardest choice to me, to get rid of my baby. Me getting pregnant wasn’t planned, but I could not just think about how I’d cope, I had to think bout the unborn baby in this, and I just couldn’t bring a nuva baby into the world as I live with parents sharing room with my 2 year old, so wouldn’t be posable and nor feel emotionally ready to start again, but making the choice was so hard to doo.
And after now it is all over the emotions I’m going through, is unbearable, feeling guilty, confused, angry, frustrated all at same time
I’m 18 years old as of 3 weeks ago and I just found out I’m pregnant on Wednesday.
I went to Planned Parenthood to make sure and sure enough, I was. I told my mom, and my boyfriend, and his parents. Everyone is so supportive of me. My mom and his mom are both against abortions but they aren’t convincing me into anything. They said it’s my decision and they’ll support whatever the outcome is. My boyfriend was stuck in the middle for a day, then he told me that I should have it. I was stunned because I was just convincing myself that I should have an abortion because of my age and my future goals. I am a senior and I would be 8 months pregnant during the time of my prom (therefore I couldn’t go), and I would be sitting at my commencement very uncomfortably. I just applied for colleges and I’m not out of party mode at all. I called the place to get an abortion yesterday and scheduled an appointment. My first appointment is actually in 2 hours. I’m still very confused, and today was the first day I cried about all of this happening to me.
I really want to go to college the way I planned my life, and finish my senior year off the way it was supposed to be. Now I am second guessing….
I’m 17 and a junior in high school. I’ll be turning 18 in about a month and a half. I am currently facing some of the hardest times that I have faced in a long time which is saying a lot.
There is a possibility that I am pregnant with my ex-boyfriend’s child. I will be taking a test in the next week, which is the soonest that I can because I won’t have money until tomorrow or Saturday. I know that it is entirely too early to start thinking about having a family but I know that there is no other option but to keep the baby if there is one. It is my responsibility being that I helped to create it. No, the ex-boyfriend is not in the picture but yes, he does know that I might be pregnant and so does his girlfriend and we’ve all talked about it. I’m taking this one step at a time and I just wanted to say this.
Girls, if you’re on this website but are not pregnant, then please, unless you’re capable of taking care of an infant, then do not get pregnant. I’m not trying to tell you guys what to do but please think carefully!
Love always
Just because I chose abortion as an option, it doesn’t mean that I’ve lost my right to feel loss… My loss IS real. My grief IS real. My pain IS real. My anger IS real... But what exactly is lost?
Since the abortion, for as long as I can remember, I have been depressed on one level or another. I’ve felt that something important is missing and it has left me feeling empty and incomplete. That’s because I’ve lost a lot more than just a baby…. Yes, I mourn for my child, but there are other aspects of my life and pregnancy that deserve to be mourned too. With the abortion:
- I lost my hopes for my baby and my hopes of being the best mother, care giver, and teacher I could be,
- I lost the hope of watching our child grow up,
- I lost the closeness I shared with da boyfriend before the abortion and the hope of having a family with him,
- I lost my self respect, self confidence and self image,
- I lost my dreams, goals, and vision for my future.
I had not given thought to these things. Being so consumed by guilt and anger has blinded me to other parts of my life that need to be worked on.
xxxxx
It has been nearly a year since I chose to have an abortion and recently accepted I am suffering with post-abortion syndrome.
I was 16 when I found out I was pregnant and 17, 8 weeks pregnant when I chose to have an abortion. Now I believe that decision was made to please my mum and boyfriend. I had convinced myself at the time and for many months after that what I did was the right thing, when it wasn’t.
It is the first and last thing I think of everyday and living with this guilt and depression is breaking me down. I cry myself to sleep every night due to this. I believe things have gotten worse recently as two of my boyfriend’s cousins, who are the same age, have a child, and one is expecting. It breaks my heart that I can’t even be happy for them because I am so upset and jealous of them.
