I have never been so confused in my life.
September 2, I found out I was pregnant with my first child. I never thought about abortion or adoption and I delivered my precious son, Cayden Malachi on April 12. After 4 months, I realized I was unable to be a full-time pre-med student, hold a full-time job, and be a full-time mother. I was 18 years old when he was born. I was so blessed that some very close (family member type) friends adopted him and let me see him on a very consistent basis…
Fast forward to October 27… I am pregnant. AGAIN!?!?! My baby’s daddy is my best friend. We used to date at one point, but it didn’t really work out. We are still very very close and sleep together on a regular basis. Apparently, the birth control shot I was taking had worn off. Anyways, to make matters worse, my father is a music pastor, and my mother… well, she can be a real @$$ sometimes. The father and I have been discussing our options. He also has an 18 month old child with another woman. He swears that he will not tell his parents about our child whether we chose abortion, adoption, or to keep the baby. I don’t agree with abortion, but right now, its seeming to be the only option there is. My body suffered so bad through my last pregnancy. I don’t know if I can be pregnant for 18 months almost solid!!!!!!!
HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hello
I’m 25 years old. I’m here because I can’t really talk to nobody about my abortion and that’s killing me. My story is I was dating a guy for 3 years. We always just talked about having a family together. He was the first guy I had sex with. I lost my virginity with him when I was 20 years old. I found out I was pregnant. I gave him the news. I never expected his answer. He changed right away. He told me it was not his, that he didn’t want nothing to do with me, that I was just a H*E. Wow, he just broke my heart. I was in so much pain. I couldn’t tell my parents, they are really old-fashioned. I felt like my world had ended. I could trust nobody.
He called me to meet him at the park. I thought he had changed his mind, I was so wrong. He threw $400.00 in my face and said “Do what you have to do. I don’t want that shit.” I couldn’t believe that the man I loved was telling me that. I threw the money back at him, but he played with my emotions, making me more scarred than I was. I felt I didn’t had an exit. Telling my parents I was pregnant and the guy didn’t want to do nothing with me was not an option. I fear my parents. They are so closed minded. I love them so much but they have gave me all the material things and never showed me how much they love me…
I decided to have the abortion. I didn’t know how far I was. He took me. I was crying since I got there. I told him how much I hated him, he didn’t care. I was done having the abortion. I still couldn’t believe what I had done. He took me to my car. I had it drive to my house, so weak. He left me like a piece of trash on my luck. That night, he called me and asked me, “How you feeling”. I was still crying. I told him I felt so bad. Why me? He just told me I don’t want no more drama. I just clicked. I was for 3 days in my dark room, not knowing if it was day or night, just by myself: sleeping, crying, didn’t talked to no body. I felt like I was death. Every day, I remind myself I had other options. I felt really bad I killed an innocent baby, I have never had peace after that. I can’t enjoy life. It’s so hard for me to be happy…. I hate myself for doing that. I wish I had never than that.
Wow, I feel so guilty ……….
Is the first 2 weeks counted in pregnancy? 4 weeks and 3 days are really 2 weeks and 4 days, right?
IDK I’m kinda confused becuz I think I’m pregnant. Also, I need help.
Hi! I’m fairly new to this site. I’ll just start with the basics and post more tomorrow.
I’m fifteen and live in NY. My boyfriend and I have been together for (almost) 1 year and 10 months. I’ve had a crush on him since 5th grade, even after he said I was a coward and not his type (in 7th grade). We (finally!) started going out in the middle of eighth.
My mom had me and my older brother in her early twenties. She divorced my father due to drug and alcohol addiction, so I know nothing about him, which is starting to bother me. My mom remarried, had my younger brother and sister, and after being neglected by my stepdad, we are now going through a rough separation where he refuses to make contact with us about anything, especially since he’s living with his girlfriend.
I had an abortion about 7 months ago. It’s been excruciatingly tough to deal with. I’ve been starting to become depressed due to it, because I never wanted to go through with it; my boyfriend did. I hurt so much still. If anyone has any words of how to get through this, please let me know. I’m almost going to have to see a psychiatrist due to my depression, and my heart is breaking more and more every day.
-R
I have been pregnant for a month and I’m loving it, but I have questions and concerns.
Today, October 28, 2009, I found out for sure I was pregnant. The bomb hit me with tears of joy and tears of pain. Joy for the fact that I was carrying God’s child, a living thing, a part of me. Pain for the fact that my mom says I have to get an abortion.
I don’t want an abortion…oh no way! I believe abortion is the worst way to deal with pregnancy, regardless of the child’s age. You see, I’m only a freshie in high school, and I know I shouldn’t have had sex in the first place. That’s my fault for making a dumb decision so being pregnant is my decision and will be my responsibility to deal with…
But to be told that I HAVE to have an abortion kills me. I’d rather give it up for adoption, but I would never want to take away my child’s life, or any even anyone else’s, for that matter.
Being the victim of a forced-abortion is terrible…and I’m in so much more pain than if I was in labor right now.
