I don’t see myself as a mother to my child but just another girl who had an abortion.

On 7th March 2008 was the day my world fell apart. I aborted my 2nd child at 11 weeks. I had my first baby August 2007 and got pregnant when I was on the pill. I was going to continue with the pregnancy to start with and was bleeding at 5 weeks and had an early scan. My partner would support me either way but it was up to me. I was very confused and emotional and didn’t think I would cope with 2 children under 2.

I rushed into my abortion and now I am full of regret, guilt, and hate. I had no counseling, which I wanted, and was not fully informed of the aftereffects. I am different and my life will never be the same. As I feel I killed my baby. I keep wondering what if, how far, etc. I want another baby so badly that I feel all I see is newborns and bumps and think that should be me. Remember I made my choice and now wish I could rewind. I feel alone and people just expect me to get over it. I can’t. My baby should still be with me, growing, but I decided to end that and I regret it.

Please think before you act. Abortion is very hard and should not be taken lightly. I am only 25 years old and I have to live with this forever.