I thought I was prego, but sadly I am not.

As much as I want another baby, right now isn’t the ideal time to conceive or raise one. I’m unemployed, suicidal, and depressed beyond reason. I need to get a better grip on things going on in my life before I bring a child into it. I wanna give my baby everything it would need, even if that means doing it alone + if I’m going to have a baby, the least I have to do is wait until I know I won’t kill myself if I get overwhelmed.

I don’t wanna leave my baby alone in this world. I don’t want to abort. Don’t want to give them up. I want to raise them. So, after I get my feet on solid ground and I’m stable for at least 5 months, I’ll try again to have another baby. Hopefully, by then, I’ll be employed + moving into the apt I just checked out yesterday.

So wish me luck!