Well tonight was a VERY emotional night. I honestly can't stop crying and it's killing me that my family refusing to talk to me. I'm keeping this baby, because the breath of a baby, is like the sun that kisses a bloom, it's essential, it's beautiful, it's AMAZING. I'm just scared, I'm fifteen, and by myself. Jasper (bf) is back in Berlin for a few weeks and I'm struggling without him. Today was my sisters birthday ( she was shot and killed in a hit & run last summer) and she would be the only one right now to grasp my clammy nervous hands through this all. I'm a strong girl, and I will do this, I AM BRAVE,

I love you sisters, and NEVER EVER you forget that.
Take my grasp, and we won't ever be alone<3