Did they put you

in a jar

or a tube,

and tossed you aside

in a rusty old  sink

like garbage?

I’d like to call up God and ask Him why…..

Why my cries were never heard,

and why no one ever cared,

and why I was left without you…

Why you never had a birthday…

and no songs were ever sung,…

and why you never even had

a fighting chance…

And why the only place

I’ll ever hold you

is the hollow of my heart..

Then I would beg God

to never be forgiven..

Fearing if I were,

somehow that would mean

I would have to

let you go…

Just like I did

On that day

when they put you in a jar

or a tube

and tossed you aside

in some rusty old sink

like garbage…

There are some

who say it does not matter ..

but I do not agree…

For I know I would have loved you

have I ever had the chance

to be your mother!

I found that today when I was all down searching through the internet…

It is so like describing my feelings today…

It has been 1 year and 11 months today, 13/09/08.

My lil baby would be old around 1 year and 3-4 months…

**!!Mommy misses you so much!! **