Here I am again, wondering if it’s okay.
Can’t stop this troubled heart cause our hearts are apart, miles away from each other. Oh my baby, I picture you and I walking in a mall holding hands. I turn back to look at my life, I see a child wearing a school uniform and I start imagining you. I was confused at first, but not now. I have thought and thought until my brain stops generating. I could not eat or sleep, let alone share my thoughts with other people. Remembering the day I sat in a doctor’s room. Why am I here, I asked myself. Then I began answering myself at the very same time. This all started by letting a guy control my life, By being negative about reality. He decided what was wrong and right for me. He told me where to and where not to. And I believe he decided that it was time to have a baby now. Confused, not knowing what to do and who to tell, considered abortion and committing suicide, but still my inner part told me to rethink everything thoroughly. As a politician, I know that teenage pregnancy is a very judgmental issue, but still am I doing it for people? February 14, I chose my sentence. The reason I call it a sentence is because I knew that whatever decision I came up with had to live in me for the rest of my life. I chose to be a mother and not just any mother but I chose to be a teenage mother. February 16, I started telling my friends, who in turn judged, laughed, and talked behind my back. Another day passed still crying about this baby that was inside me. I decided to tell my teacher. WOW, how lucky am I to get a very understanding person. She calmed me down and she was always on my side until when I told my mother. “WHAT” were the words she said before sobbing. Lucky I had someone on my side who made the path a little more easier for me.
Today, here am I, no longer confused, but with a family that is looking forward to a niece, nephew, granddaughter, and daughter. Therefore, I am no longer confused as I now have a solution. Not as easy as one will think it is. I love my unborn baby girl
