IT was around this time last year when I found out that I was one month pregnant.
I didn’t know what to do and all I could think about was my parents’ reactions coz I was only 16 years old that time. So I called my boyfriend and told him about it and the first thing he said was “Have you considered having an abortion?” I was so confused even scared to tell my sister, so I thought maybe what he suggested was the right thing to do. A few days later, when we were supposed to go do it, he never pitched, so I went there alone. While waiting there, I was asking myself whether this was the right thing to do or not? But I finally made a decision and I went through with it. Days after doing it, I started getting sick, that’s when my parents found out and I even ended up in the hospital. When I called my boyfriend to tell him about what happened, he never said anything and I never saw him for months. My parents were very angry with me but they finally forgave me and life went on as normal. Not a day passes when I don’t pray that God forgives me for what I’ve done. Each day when I think about what I’ve done, I turn into a thousand pieces and I have no one to share my feelings with. If I could turn back time, I would erase what I’ve done and bring back my baby……….
I AM SO SORRY FOR NOT GIVING YOU A CHANCE TO LIVE 🙁
So here I am once again thinking about this when I have other things to do.
I don’t know if I love my son. I picture myself with my future children but not him. The last time I saw him, I remember looking at him and thinking about how sad he looked. I seem to be unable to stand anybody touching me but I remember letting him touch me and holding him and wondering what he was thinking. People say he looks like me but I can’t see any resemblance. All mothers seem to love their babies but I just can’t. I actually don’t love anyone and I don’t think I will ever be able to. I feel like I should keep him because it’s the right thing to do but is it? What can I live with? I can’t help but think that if I were to give him up, I would never think about him again. I think I would be a horrible mother to him.
The last time I saw him, he looked sadder than any 4 year old should. He reminded me of me and how sad I always feel. It’s like he knows about all the bad things that happened in his short life and he’s thinking of all the things that are yet to come. I shouldn’t think so pessimistically when I think about him. I just wish he would smile more often. I wish I could make him smile
I want him to be happy and I want to be happy and I know its not his fault that he came into this world the way he did but it might be easier if he weren’t here. I feel such disgust when I think about his dad and I don’t want to project that on to him.
I possibly just need to get over myself and stop being selfish. But I am too young to be thinking about such things.
I need to work harder and learn to love him. Who knows, maybe once we have a new start just me and him and none of the past things will get better.
I am glad I didn’t have an abortion because its wrong to kill a child but I can’t help thinking it would be easier because I wouldn’t be able to screw up his life
Hi, I am currently in year 12 at school as part of an assignment I am researching the effect of a teenage pregnancy on an individual’s wellbeing. Below are some questions and I would really appreciate it if you could answer them!
1. How old were you when you became pregnant?
12-14, 14-16, 16-18, 18-20
2. How do you think age affected your pregnancy?
3. How did you feel when you found out you were pregnant?
Overjoyed Angry Disappointed Afraid Heartbroken
4. Did the father of the baby stay in the picture?
Yes No
5. How did this affect you?
6. How did you feel physically during the pregnancy, birth and after the baby was born?
7. How did you feel emotionally?
8. What affect did this have on your overall wellbeing?
9. How did you manage financially?
10. How did this affect you and your decisions?
11. How often do you attend social engagements?
Always Often Sometimes Never
12. How does this affect you?
13. Did you turn to any religion or spiritual guidance throughout your pregnancy?
14. Did you seek support from anyone other than family or friends?
Yes No
15. If you had another chance, would anything be done differently?
Please help!
Nothing could ever come between us
Even when we are apart you’re still with me
If the ship was sinking
I know you would not let me drown
If everyone on earth was gone
I would still have you here with me
With the last breath that I take
You would be right beside me
Every step that I take with you
My heart is stronger every minute
Without you, I don’t know what I would do
You’re everything to my heart
Having you as my love means the world to me
I just had my first ultrasound April 28th.
When I went in for my first visit, the OB felt my uterus & told me I felt about 8 weeks. So, thinking all I’m going to see on my ultrasound was a little peanut, I went in & had it done. When the Ultrasound Tech turned the screen, she says “Well, you’re farther along than we thought.” My lil baby had arms, legs, fingers, toes, and was kicking around like CRAZYY (probably b/c all I had that morning was Mountain Dew & jelly beans 🙂 haha. So, she told me I was 11 1/2 weeks… and I couldn’t be happier!!
I never thought I could fall in love soo fast!!!
I’m 16yrs old and 5 1/2 months pregnant.
When I told my baby’s father I was pregnant, he said pece out. This has been the hardest experience in the life but I have gotten used to it. I would have never even considered abortion even though my Jayden Glenn was unplanned. I love him more than anything in this world. Jayden is the reason I get up every morning, the reason I’m still in school, trying to graduate. My baby’s father isn’t here for me one bit. He doesn’t even claim Jayden. Nut as days go by, I make things better for myself cuz I have to now for my son ;]
For girls who are pregnant and thinking about abortion, to be honest, my son has been the best thing in my life and I wouldn’t imagine a day anymore without wondering what he is going to look like, and how much he is gonna brighten up my day. You don’t need a man to be there for your child. It is hard but things get better with time <33
Always keep your head up and think of better days.
