what should i do before its too late?

OK, I have loved this boy since I was 18. I got pregnant with my daughter Feb, while I was a freshman in college and doing very well. We decided to have her regardless of how young and unsure we were.

In Sept, he was arrested and spent the next 2 years locked up. I cheated on him while he was locked up and also was raped the year before he came home. He was released in Feb and at first, we were happy. I was never able to go back to school because the rape happened down at my school. I have been trying to work and pay off debt I incurred while I was pregnant. After a couple of months, I realized that the man I love has changed. He is abusive toward me, in all ways thinkable. I have since moved back in with my mother. But I have recently found out I am pregnant again.

I no longer want anything to do with him but I still love this boy with everything I am made of. He has told me time and time again that if I have this baby, he will never connect with me again and I should never contact him. I have given up on fighting for a relationship that isn’t meant to be. However, I do not know if bringing a baby into my situation is a smart decision. I am 22 with a 2, almost 3 year old. I live with my mother who is not helping me financially to better myself and I have yet to return to school to do the one thing i promised myself I would do….get my degree. I do know adoption is not an option for me as I am the product of adoption and would not wish my insecurities on my worst enemies. I have heard so many horrible stories about abortion but that seems to be my only option at this point. I can’t bear the emotional toll of abortion but I am not sure if I will ever achieve my goals and dreams with two babies by a boy who thinks so little of me and his kids that he does nothing to help.

What should I do? I will consider any alternatives at this point.