So I am pregnant. I’m in my 5th week and I’m already going crazy.
I cry over the smallest thing… even dumb commercials! I’m overly moody and I’m always hungry! I’ve already gained like 5 pounds because I eat so often. On average, I eat as soon as I wake up and about every 2 hours after that. Before, I couldn’t stand orange juice, not even the smell, and now it’s all I want to drink… Oh and things I can’t drink, argh like soda or coffee!!!!!!! And I can’t work out or run like I used to because I don’t want to hurt the baby (even though it’s soooooo tiny) and that’s usually what calms me down! I’m young. I should be out with my friends, getting into trouble. Oh but no, I cant! I’m soooo tired now that I’m in bed hours before I usually am.
And as for the “father'”…… Well, I told him but he doesn’t even seem to care. This blows. He gets to go around and pretend that we didn’t both mess up and act like I’m not pregnant and that he doesn’t even know me. It hurts so much to know that I have no choice but to deal with this and he doesn’t have to if he doesn’t want to. He can go on and live his normal life yet I can’t hide this from the world for very long before everyone knows I made a huge mistake. I want soo much to go back and stop this from happening, but I’m facing what I did and not running from it.
Its still rather early to tell if I want to try this or not, but I know right now that I won’t be able to do this alone.