Hey girls.

I fell pregnant at the age of 16 when I was taking my gcse’s. When I fell pregnant, I was very ill with septicemia, which stopped my birth control working. I found out I was pregnant on my 17th birthday. When I told my boyfriend, he seemed supportive then, along with my mum, they pushed me into an abortion. At the time, I didn’t know what I wanted, but I knew I didn’t want an abortion. This happened on the 26th of October 2009.

After the abortion, I fell into deep depression and my boyfriend left me as he couldn’t cope. After a while, we were still seeing each other and all I wanted was to get pregnant again. I was sleeping with him without using anything so I could fall pregnant. Last year, around March, I was admitted to the hospital with very bad depression after attempting suicide. At the time, I felt stupid because no one would understand how I felt because it wasn’t them. I started to see a few ladies who were amazing, and with help from them and a high does of anti-depressants, I got back on my feet. Only recently have I started to want another baby. I recently got with a boy in March and we split up a few weeks ago as he was cheating. With the stress from that and everything else, I’m finding it very hard to cope. I find myself wanting to sleep with anyone to get pregnant, I even split with someone the day after I split up with my ex without using contraception. All I want is a baby and it upsets me so much that girls younger have children and are supported. I never wanted children, but when I fell pregnant, that changed, and now I’m a mother without a baby.

Sarah xxx