Hello everyone. I want to talk about my almost-over pregnancy.
Me and my boyfriend (now fiancé) have been through a lot. I have loved him since I was 13 and he didn’t know. When I had my first boyfriend at 14, I loved him, but it wasn’t the same. It was like I was making up for my now fiancé. One night in September, me and my boyfriend were in a car accident. He’d just given me a necklace and I had given him a kiss on the cheek, distracting him. We accidentally ran through a red light and got hit. I woke up at the hospital, 4 days later, and everyone was there, but the first face I saw was my current boyfriend. He was talking to me alone and I woke up then he kissed me. Then I demanded to know what had happened to my first boyfriend and he sadly told me that he didn’t make it. Worse for me, I had missed his funeral.
5 months later, I was 15, but still so sad. I lost weight and stopped talking to people. Then my current boyfriend pulled me out of the darkness and helped me through my depression. 2 months after that, he asked me out and we have been going out ever since but it didn’t end there. He accidentally got run over and was hurt kinda bad, but he pulled through thankfully.
Last year, we slept together, but I didn’t know he didn’t wear protection! A few weeks later, I started feeling really weird and kind of sick and I had missed a period. Scared, I looked up pregnancy symptoms. They matched mine exactly. So I bought 3 tests. I asked him to come over to do them with me when my family was out and they were all positive. My first reaction was what have I done? I was only 17 and I was going to be a mum! The second I knew, I knew what I was going to do. Abortion wasn’t an option ever. I would never kill my child. It wasn’t its fault it wasn’t planned. I told him that and he agreed. He asked about adoption and I said maybe. My siblings tortured me about being adopted even though I wasn’t. I felt terrible and there was no way I was going to do that to an innocent child.
We got an appointment and I was only a few weeks along, just under a month. We were so scared as three months went by and found out we were expecting….a girl! As soon as I saw that heartbeat again and found out I was having a daughter, I knew we were going to keep her. Now we had to tell our parents. We went to his first and his mum was a little disappointed, but said she would support us. But his dad went nuts saying, I should get rid of it. When I said I wouldn’t, he said I was selfish because I was ruining his son’s life and if I kept it ( he didn’t know it was a girl), I would ruin its life as well. I ran out crying but my boyfriend told me that he loved me and that his dad’s opinion didn’t matter.
When we told my parents, my mum was sad and my dad kicked me out, saying he would not see me if I didn’t give up my baby. I lived in his house until we got a flat, which we did, and then we still went to church despite our parents being there. I loved this baby, but I hated all the stares and comments, but my youth group supported me. We have a two-bedroom apartment and the entire nursery is yellow with like white and pink flowers on the ceiling. My parents helped out with money. We don’t know what to name our daughter. Some suggestions would be nice.
When I was five and a half months along, we were asked to perform at a wedding, just the two of us plus some back up singers. And since I love the tv show Glee, we copied them and sung Marry You. We were dancing around (not too much for me), but I didn’t know he had a hidden agenda. At the end of the song, in front of a lot of people, he proposed and i said….YES!!!! I have a yellow and clear sparkler on my wedding finger now. I am now 7 and a half months along and I cant wait to see our gorgeous baby girl. I need names that are graceful like Grace and Charlotte.
I will keep you all posted
