lost

After reading many women’s stories, I thought writing everything down may help.

There’s a chance I could be pregnant. I think it’s more likely yes than no, and that thought scares me. I don’t really know what to do. I’ve had scares before as I am extremely paranoid. I’m a 16-year-old and I love my boyfriend more than anything. I know he thinks getting rid of a baby would be easy as when I’ve been scared before he’s always not really listened. But now I feel weird. I’ve had plans, looked up procedures, and I know everything I need to. But the reality is quite different from the facts. I am lost, as I don’t want to feel the hurt that some women have. However, I know I have to have an abortion as I have no financial support and my mum wouldn’t allow me to keep it. Neither would my boyfriend. It’s stupid of me to keep it. It would ruin my life and I know it’s impossible. Therefore, I have to sit and wait around, hoping I get my period.

I’ve been having cramps since at least a week ago, and I’m due at some point this week. I am praying I get it as I don’t want to hurt a baby, but I know that if I have to, then I have no other alternative. This makes me sad, and as much as I want this to all go away, its my own fault, and I shouldn’t have been so stupid.

I’m on the pill, so we haven’t always used condoms, not at all recently. Which I knew was a bad idea, but it didn’t stop me. But I always felt quite confident as he always pulled out, making it slightly safer as there would be less there.

But anyway, I now fear that this will change me, as it has so many others. I always thought I would be able to do this, but I just know it will hurt me emotionally and be quite unbearable.

I just joined this site for this purpose as I thought that someone on here would be more experienced and knowledge- filled than me.

So basically, I was wondering if you could tell me how likely it is that I’m pregnant, and if I am, has anyone had the up to 13 week surgical abortion? Because I think that would be my preference.

A final worry is that I will be too late to have the abortion done. I’ll test next week if nothing happens. And I’ll be around 5 weeks then, so I don’t want to run out of time.

Any advice is welcome, and sorry for writing so much, I always thought it was impossible to write as much as some people do, but then I guess I’ve found I have a lot to say.

Thank you for reading.

Court?

I’m Really Confused right now! I need help figuring it out…

I’m thinking about taking Skyler’s Daddy to court to get child support from him. He hasn’t paid for her ever. It’s been 3 1/2 years now. I don’t know how to get him to pay it. I’m scared he will fight and not have to pay for his daughter who he calls a mistake that should have not been born. He told me that I shouldn’t have kept my baby and killed it. I have never seen this side of him before.

How can I get him to pay for his kid, even though he doesn’t want her alive? I need HELP!!

Life

It’s funny how life turns out. One day, you are mommy’s & daddy’s little gal, and the next, you all just don’t agree on anything and everything.

It’s amazing how one can have two hearts and when the weight of the world is on their shoulders manage to keep them beating as one. I just wonder how life would have turned out if I hadn’t given in to pressure, but hey, life has a design and it’s either you follow the pattern or you lose out. I chose not to lose out anymore coz my design was spread out wide and I came across everyone here.
This site is like a home away from home, a pillar of strength, a mother. You can be sure that if you come here with a question, it will be answered. And even when you feel lost, you will surely find your way. I can remember the 1st time I came across this site. I was drowning in misery and sorrow. I got more than what I came here for. I got friends, people who can relate to what i was feeling.

Today, I can say I’m healed from all the heartache and sorrow I feel. I’m a new person who embraces life and its gifts.

A Poem for a bleeding heart

A sudden gift, how could it be? One that comes from two times twenty-three
Could it be a heart that beats for me?
My life?
Was it given to me, just only me?
How could I have sent it away?
But I guess it just wasn’t meant for me………. 

Pregnant AGIAN for the 3rd time? geezz dont trust TORJAN !!

Soo when I use protection, I guess it really doesn’t protect…

Me and my husband do not plan on having any more until I’m 25. I’m 21 right now. I already have 2 sweethearts and I don’t plan at the moment to have any more.  I couldn’t take the Plan B pill because I already took it 2 months ago when this happened before. And NO, it wasn’t cheap condoms. Those things were freaking expensive. Well anywho, I got my period 2x in one month and I’m supposed to start this month and haven’t yet…

Soo, please pray that I get it… And if I’m pregos, i want a BOY cause my husband seems to only make GIRLS. lol…

Pregnant and single

I never really thought my life would turn out the way that it has. I never planned on being a single mom (like anyone plans these things, lol).

In some ways, I’m looking forward to being a mom, but in other ways, I’m completely dreading it. I know the baby is a blessing and I love him already, but I know how hard it’s going to be to do this on my own. I thought his father would be around, and we were getting along pretty well for a while. But a couple of weeks ago, I found out from his mom that he moved out of town. He never even told me, he just took off. I’m not even sure if he’s coming back. It hurts knowing he doesn’t care, but I’ve gotta be strong. I wish that I could move on, but right now it’s impossible. The worst part of it is that I still love him. Even after all the stupid sh*t he’s put me through. I guess I always will though. How can you not love the father of your child?

I don’t know, maybe someday I’ll figure it out.