My Pregnancy So Far . . .

I am 7 weeks and 5 days pregnant.

So far, I have experienced extreme “morning sickness” that lasts all day and night… I miss being able to eat… I dream about food lol! I am not able to go out anywhere, and I spend most of my time in bed… It sucks. I hope this passes soon!

I will update when new things happen!

Preggo?

If I am preggo, I am roughly 4 weeks and 4 days pregnant!

How do I tell my parents and my Boyfriend and friends????

Oh baby baby

My head is a whirl wind of thoughts, and has been since I last had my period on 28th Oct! Trying to conceive a baby is not so straight forward as I would have wished for. I have done 2 pregnancy tests, both negative, but I can’t believe either!!!

I WANT TO BE PREGNANT……………………

Now either my body’s playing tricks on me and I’m going mad by having phantom pregnancy…………. Sore boobs, feeling sick, no period, and generally just feeling different!!!

Or I am pregnant & the tests just haven’t registered it!!!

I’m 42 so age goes against me, but I am very fit (as in active)…..running!!

I have a 2-year-old whom I still breast feeding, my periods came back in July……… So they still could be settling down. (I don’t want to believe that)!!

I wish I could switch my head off for a while, I keep going to the toilet checking to see if my period has started……….. I find myself giving my boobs a quick poke to see if they’re still tender (which they are)……….

I love being a mum………& my desire for another baby is so intense……… I feel very guilty for wanting another child when I have been blessed with 3! My son is 20, then my daughter’s 17, and then there’s my toddler who’s 2 🙂

My light <3

A lot has changed in the past year.

We are engaged to be married on the 18th of February. Harry is 2 years old and getting more beautiful everyday, and then Gemma is 5 months old and an amazing baby despite her early start in life.

I haven’t been on for a while. When Gemma was born, I was suffering from Post Natal Depression and I really thought I hated her. By the time she was 2 months old, we’d started to bond and then now, I can’t imagine what my life would have been like without her. My fiancé works away probably 3 days a week so it’s hard because I’m like a single mom a lot of the time and I worry about him.

Addiction and unplanned pregnancy.

So ladies,I have a severe drug addiction problem as does my bf. I couldn’t go 9 months w/o drugs – no way. I am pro-life though. This sucks.

Thinking about this makes me want to do drugs, gosh help me!

Fallen Angel

A fallen angel… Such beauty broken. 

She lived with grace, whose heart was stolen. 

When time ran out, a choice was made. 

For forbidden love’s thrill, her wings she’d trade. 

A thousand tears fell from her eyes, when love betrayed her with no goodbyes. 

And regret, that realized all was done, begged for the wings that now were gone. 

Forever chained, by choice, to ground; her covered face and head hung down. 

Dirt and thorns had stained and torn the pure white gown with pride she’d worn.

Now, with only regret and sorrow, gazes she upon tomorrow. 

And a cry is heard, a distant sound from up above the lonely ground. 

She felt His tears fall on her skin, as ugly reality finally set in. 

She, now fallen, never again to fly;

Of her own free will, had turned from heaven and said goodbye.