My head is a whirl wind of thoughts, and has been since I last had my period on 28th oct! Trying to conceive a baby is not so straight forward as I would have wished for. I have done 2 preg tests both negative, but can’t believe either!!! 

I WANT TO BE PREGNANT……………………

Now either my bodies playing tricks on me and I going mad by having phantom preg………….sore boob’s feeling sick, no period and generally just feeling different!!!

Or I am preg & test just hasn’t registered it!!!

I’m 42 so age goes against me, but I am very fit (as in active)…..running!!

I have a 2 year old whom I still breast feeding, my periods came back in july………so they still could be settling down(I don’t want to believe that)!!

I wish I could switch my head off for a while, I keep going to the toilet checking to see if period has started……….. I find myself giving my boobs a quick poke to see if there still tender(which they are)……….

I love being a mum………& my desire for another baby is so intense……… I feel very guilty for wanting another child when  I have been blessed 3! My son is 20, then my daughter 17 and then there’s my toddler who’s 2 🙂