So this is my 2nd time on this site.
5 years ago, I created my first account. I had just gone through an abortion, something that still bothers me to this very day. I was 5 months pregnant when my mom made me get it and I was 14 years old. Talk about torture, pain, and suffering; I’ve been through a great deal of pain because of that. I’ve been beaten and abused for things that stem back to the abortion. Well, a year later my doctor told me that I have PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome), and now my head is filled with the thoughts that I’ll never be able to get pregnant again. And it’s driving me crazy because I’ve even tried to purposely get pregnant by a few dudes. Of course, it didn’t happen, but this all just makes me so sad. I feel like that one time when I was 14 was my only chance and I was so close to having that bundle of joy only for it to all be taken away from me. My friend is about to have a baby. She didn’t want him at first, but I talked her into keeping him and that makes me happy, but I also envy her. On the other hand, if any of you decide to look at my photo album on here, you’ll see a little boy in there. His name is Kyree and I love him more than any of you could ever know. He’s my cousin’s baby and he means a whole lot to me because he sort of helped me get through my abortion. Idk what I was gonna have, but I think it was a boy. Well, Kyree is the age my son is supposed to be. The doctors told me I was due at the end of June, beginning of July. Well, Kyree was born at the beginning of August and his mom always needed a babysitter, so I’ve kept him for her since day one. It’s funny because he’s exactly how I pictured my baby to look. He’s only a month younger and he’s white and black. My baby was half Mexican, but Kyree looks Mexican! lol. Everyone always thought he was my baby just because he looks Mexican. He was the greatest gift I could’ve got at that time. I’ll always have a special bond with him because of that.
Now my biggest problem is… Will I ever get pregnant again?
Why can’t teens wait?
I mean I know it’s hard to wait when you both love each other, but you should wait. If you know anyone who has had a baby, you should know it is hard, so wait. But no one likes waiting. I don’t think this is right cause a lot of teens like to get abortions. I don’t think that’s right at all. You’re killing one life that could have lived.
If you didn’t want the baby, give it up for adoption or else don’t make them.
I’ve recently written my personal statement for university.
I’m applying to midwifery which has made me think about pregnancy a lot lately. I’ve researched on the internet and in the library at school and the more I read, the more it scares me. The pregnancy rate in teenagers around my area is at an all-time high. I don’t disagree with it at all! But I can’t see why nothing is being done to teach youngsters about the effects a child has on your life. When I’m sitting at the table for lunch with my friends, there are girls sitting opposite us talking about how they are going to be parents and proudly showing off their scan pictures… They are 13!
Then I see articles in which older mothers are looked down on. if you are over the age of 35, it seems ‘wrong’.. but why? The genetic defects and conditions that can occur are a higher risk in the older woman due to the maturity in the body, but I don’t see why is it looked upon as ‘wrong’.
it seems like the only time it is ‘right’ is when you are in your 20s, but some people are just finishing their further education. They are just starting out in their careers. They have no time to stop and reproduce. But it’s right in the public eye.
Personally, I think that pregnancy is a beautiful thing and is a blessing to anyone who experiences it whatever the age. it is easier when you are a bit older, I suppose, as you have financial security, but it is not always the way everyone wants to see it happen. I think people should have children when they feel the time is right, no matter the age
What is YOUR view on this? Have you experienced the backlash of the public who are set in the ‘right’ and ‘wrong’ ways of the government?
I am interested in finding out what people think about this… Thanks 🙂 <3
I wish I had known about this site when I got pregnant, but of course, I didn’t till now.
if I knew there were other girls going through the same thing, I would probably still have my baby. but instead, my ex told me I had to have an abortion.
I miss my baby very much and I hope one day I can be with her again.
I wrote this late one night, based on a combination of what I was feeling and what a friend of mine was going through. Have any of you ever felt this way?
“What am I? Just a body, moving from hour to hour, day to day, as life swims around me. A breath exhaled then gone forever. A flower? Maybe. But I’m ever-wilting. Lost without direction. A wave tossed on the sea. Nothing more. Nothing less. I am but one, invisible speck in this vast universe. I am only me.
Am I worth anything? Maybe. To some. But once I give them what they want, where are they? They’re all gone.
Am I beautiful? Maybe. To some. But beauty can become a curse. I attract those I do not want. To have someone force themselves on you against your will… Nothing could be worse.
Am I smart? Maybe. To some. But I know from my past mistakes that I am in no way wise. I can fool others, but I see myself through my own eyes.
Am I OK? Maybe. Many people believe so. I have become an expert actress. Genuine-looking smiles to disguise the pain. I wear masks flawlessly. Laughing to hold the tears at bay.
What am I? I don’t think I know anymore. I feel the need to cry, to scream, to run. I crave love in a way that I never have before.
What will I do? Haha. I don’t really know. Probably the same thing I always do. Take all these emotions, lock them inside my heart, and swear to never let them show.”
OK. So I found out I’m pregnant a week ago, 9 weeks approximately (I’m still yet to have my ultrasound to confirm how far along I am). My boyfriend is 100 percent supportive. but his parents most definitely aren’t. Let’s call his parents B for the mum and C for the dad (I’d rather not mention names).
In my boyfriend’s family, there’s been a history of teenage pregnancies. My boyfriend’s mother had her first child at 18, his sister at 16, and his brother’s girlfriend at 15. Might I add his brother’s girlfriend is the devil’s daughter and treats B & C like crap! Yells and screams at them, refuses to let them anywhere near where she’s living (which is a house that they own), only ever talks to them if she needs money, never lets them see their granddaughter, steals, accuses, and never shuts up about absolute nonsense! Oh yeah, and she’s 3 months younger than I am (so she’s seventeen now ) and pregnant again- Yet she gets full support and a congratulations, this, that, whatever. And I get the dreaded abortion speech simply because I’m *too young*
COME ON! What is it about me that makes them think I’m incapable of looking after a child?!?!? I babysit their one-year-old daughter on a regular basis, and I know that’s not like having my own child, but it still means they trust me with children! They don’t even trust the devil’s daughter when she has a daughter one week older than theirs, and how can THEY accuse me of being too young when I’ll be having my child when I’m 18 and that’s the same age B had her first child….?
Hypocrites….. I’m so angry and stressed and annoyed and frustrated and just downright upset at their behavior. And the worst part is, if I don’t agree to terminate my child ( and I definitely won’t be agreeing), then my boyfriend and I get booted to the streets. They claim that they’re 100 percent against abortion – So why are they suggesting it?!
It’s ridiculous! and I have absolutely no idea how to cope with it without biting their heads off.
So annoyed.
