Today is the day. I am so scared because I’m going to be taking the pill which means that the abortion will happen within the next three days.
I don’t know if I can go through with it. What do you guys think of adoption?? My boyfriend says that if he can’t have it then no one can and it will grow up messed up because it will be adopted. I tried to explain to him that that’s not the case and that there is open adoption. I don’t know what to do. I just want to run away and have it and give it up for adoption. I know there is help out there for that but I’m scared to leave my home and my boyfriend who I have been with for three years now.
I couldn’t sleep last night and have been thinking about it nonstop.
I’m not quite sure what I’m hoping for…
I’m a few days late on my period and despite the circumstances, I know I’d be a really good mum and I’d put everything before my possible child, regardless of who supports me or not. I’m being realistic about my situation, I know I’ll most likely have to put off my education for a couple of years. I’m pretty sure with me being so young (I’m 16), my boyfriend (the baby daddy) won’t stick around, and I’m not entirely sure how I’d tell my mum. But all those things considered, I wouldn’t want to get rid of my baby (if there even is one). I’m in a way hoping I’m not pregnant because it’s not the ideal situation to be having a baby so young with nothing set in stone, I’d much rather have a steady job, my own place, and a steady relationship before I’d go down the baby route. But if this is what’s planned for me, I’ll make the most of every second, because (even being so young) I know I was born to care for others and become a mum (I want to work in a hospital, to look after people). My family situation isn’t really ideal, so I want to start my own close-knit family; I suppose to fill some ‘void’ I must have from my own… Some days I feel stupid for wanting a family so young. I know I’m too young to be able to support my baby in the way I want to, but it still doesn’t stop me from wanting to have my own little life to care for. Someone I know I could rotate my life around without the fear of being abandoned. It’s silly, isn’t it? That a girl my age would actually want a child. But I feel I wouldn’t miss my social life as much as people say I would. Taking care of a baby is what I was born to do. I don’t know, I just needed to get my feelings out on a page.
If I am pregnant, I know I’ll feel on top of the world, and if I’m not, I can start to plan toward a life with a baby in a settled environment when I’m older.
Thanks for reading my rambles xD
I could be pregnant and I haven’t even been trying.
Right, I’ll just cut to the chase. I could be pregnant. I and my boyfriend don’t want to do the test because of past experiences of being upset about the outcome, but I don’t know what I can do right. He said he would stand by me and still love me, but then on the phone, he said that he didn’t know what do to. He said no matter what, I’m not aborting it, yet he said he doesn’t know where we will live, if we are ready, and school. I feel like if I am and we stay together and keep it, I feel like I’ll be destroying his life like I might be with mine. If I am, then I really don’t know how I will tell my grandparents and his mum.
Any help or advice will be greatly appreciated.
So the random food cravings have kicked in full. All I can seem to eat is eggs, roast beef, and pickles! I hate eggs! I’m all bloated and puffy! I feel like everyone around knows!
Today, I took a loooooong nap right after school, and my fiancé got worried about me (he doesn’t usually go too long without having some sort of communication with me). So he called my dad (who wasn’t at the house) and asked if he could check on me. So I’m asleep in my room when someone knocks on my door. I scream “WHAT DO YOU WANT!??!” and he pokes his head into my room. That brought an instant smile to my face! The first thing he said was, “Hey babe, I have something for you. (pulls a fake purple rose out from behind his back). I was going to get you a bouquet, but I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to come to see you and I didn’t want them to die so, here” And then he kissed my forehead and handed me the flower. He had sprayed it with a little of his body spray so it smelled like him. He’s just the sweetest guy!!!
He’s going to make a wonderful daddy!
To see you go,
It breaks my heart
I love you so
From the very start
I’m finally letting go
I will soon be free
I finally know
I finally see
I see the way
I know what I have to do
There’s nothing to say
I’ll never stop loving you
So I take this rope,
And make a tie
I can no longer mope
I’ll love you till the day I die
Swinging there
hanging in the breeze
Without a care
So everyone sees
What love can do
To the weak of heart
To me or you
It can tear you apart…
So I just hit 5 weeks and my fiancé started talking about how to break it to the parents. This, so far, has been the scariest part of the pregnancy.
My mom got pregnant when she was 16 and had five more kids, each two years apart, after that. So she’s constantly giving me the “no babies” talk. My dad, though I love him, is an ass. He’d kick me out in a heartbeat. My boyfriend’s mother absolutely ADORES me! She’s told me that she would take me in, and has before. He’s 18 and has a job so I’m not as worried about income as I am with school…
I’m a freshie and I go to a high school where you just DON’T get pregnant. You just don’t. No one has a kid at that school. I really don’t give a rip about what students will think so much as how I’ll be treated by my teachers. I’m not scared…yet, hahaha. I’m being as optimistic as I can be… But I need advice on everything with my parents…
How should I tell them…and also…I’m a HUGE coffee drinker…I’ve heard that it’s bad for the baby…is that true?
