My story so far..

Well…I guess I should probably start from the beginning, so here goes…

About three months ago, I found out I was pregnant after taking a spare pregnancy test I had for ages…To be totally truthful, I was just cleaning my room and came across it so I decided to use it just to get it out of the way so my mum wouldn’t find it. So I did…and it was positive. I couldn’t believe it. I went through to my boyfriend, who was sitting in my room at the time, crying. Don’t know whether my tears were of joy or sadness because I just had this weird feeling that I couldn’t have kids. Me and my boyfriend were so convinced to get an abortion because after all, I am only 16 and him 18 … But then I started having second thoughts after stumbling upon this website and reading everyone who had an abortion’s experiences. I knew in myself that I couldn’t go through with it. I told my boyfriend and he told me that he would support me in whatever choice I made.

I was also soooo scared of what my family would say. My Nana always said I would turn out to be just like my cousin as she had her daughter at 17… (the age I will be when I have mine). And she was right.

I went to the doctor’s with my boyfriend for support…and the doctor told me to hand in a urine sample so that they could confirm my pregnancy… I waited a few days then called for my results and it, of course, was positive. I was Happy! I got my letter telling me my appointment for my first scan. And I made a promise to myself that after I had it, I was going to tell my mum, but the unfortunate happened… After coming in from work, she asked me if there was something I wanted to share with her. I knew from that moment that she knew and so did my boyfriend. She found out by reading my diary (which I was sooooo pissed off at btw). I went through to talk to her and she was in sooo shocked. Can’t blame her. I knew she would react exactly like this. I stayed calm and we talked to her for a while … Then we all went to bed. In the morning, she was taking it rather well, which I thought was really weird! She told my Nana but made her swear not to tell any of the family just yet.

Me, my boyfriend, and my Mum went to the scan which was on the 7th of December. And I was so scared, just in case, there was nothing in my womb… lol… But there was …a tiny wee baby. I was amazed. It was jumping about and moving its arms 🙂 Soo lovely! I got three photos and gave one to my boyfriend’s Mum (which btw was soooo thrilled with the pregnancy), one to my Mum, and one to keep for myself. I was 12 weeks and 1 day pregnant. And I’m due on the 20th of June. I’m sooo proud.

I told all my family about the pregnancy the day of my scan. They were shocked but OK. I told my Dad last..as he stays in England. And he was sooo happy for me but is coming up to Scotland to meet the boyfriend, Haha! So that should be funny. All my friends have been really supportive. I have left my job for now as I’m not doing too great with the sickness and tiredness…Driving me mental ..but well worth it.

I’ll Keep you updated.

xoxoxox

Lots of Love

Me and the little wee baby

xoxoxo

scared

Yeah, so there is this statistic I read that some big percentage of girls that become teen moms at an early age have another child within 24 months of giving birth!! Ahh, yeah, that scares me a lot lol…

relief

I went into the emergency room on Friday for extreme stomach pain. They did an ultrasound and I saw my baby for the first time and heard its heartbeat; it was the most amazing thing I’ve ever experienced.

They said it’s perfectly healthy but I need to see an OB soon, so I finally told my mom. She was sad at first and almost hit my boyfriend who was there with me but overall, she is very supportive. My stepdad is too! But he hates being called grandpa 😛  As for my dad and his wife, they don’t know and honestly, I don’t care if they know. I have rights to keep it from them and they didn’t even care I was in the emergency room. All they said was feel better. So for Christmas, I’ll just make them a card with the ultrasound on it and say TA DA! Merry Christmas… That’s mean, I dunno… But other than my dad, my life is pretty much amazing right now. My mom keeps saying that this baby is divine and the baby will live divinely with no shame put on it. I think my mom is more excited.

But anyways, peace and love from the both of us 😉

trying to get pregnant

Hi, I’m trying to get pregnant.

I had a stabbing pain in my lower left side just below my hip. Is this ovulation? ( Dec 9) I’ve been having mild cramps on my left side and my abdomen on Dec 13,14,15.  Could this be Implantation? I had 2 kids and I never had these signs before. Could I be pregnant? My last period was on Nov 25. Can you help?

Thanks so much.

A toast

Once upon a time there lived a man who really believed in God. And one day, there was a flood in his city.

So when the water was gushing down, he got down on his knees and prayed to God. Please, God, save me. Suddenly, his neighbor runs into his house and cries. There’s a spare seat in our car. Do you want to escape with us?

No, says the man, God will save me.

The water kept on gushing, and he had to get onto his roof to escape the water. Still, he prayed. Please God, save me. Suddenly, a boat came past, and one of the people in the boat shouted. There’s a spare place in our boat, come escape with us!

No, said the man, God will save me.

The water gushed even more, and soon, the man was just holding onto the last bit of his roof that’s wasn’t underwater. Still, he prayed to God. Please God, save me.

A big log floated past him, but the man pushed it aside, and said, God will save me.

And he drowned.

When he got to heaven, he asked God, Was I not good and obedient to you in my life? Why didn’t you save me?

And God said, So what do you think your neighbors, the boat, and the log all were?

So let us drink to that, so that we do not ignore and let pass by the wonderful chances that God gives us!

Just got here

Hi! Well, I just found this site and thought it was amazing, to find so many girls with similar life struggles.

It’s nice to chat with someone that can relate to you and know how you fee. I’m not very good at writing so I hope I can express myself in the right words