Confusion!!

I’m so confused!

OK, I just recently ended a relationship with a wonderful man! And at first, it seemed easy…but now I’m having second thoughts about leaving… I love him with everything I have in me…but there is something that is standing in my way! MY BABY! If I am pregnant, then I need to stick with the baby’s daddy…but the thing is, I don’t know if I am or not and I have no way to the doctor to find out so I’m kind of stuck!

And I don’t know what to do! I love my ex but I want to be with my baby’s daddy! What do I do?

Where It All Began

I have been with my husband since I was thirteen years old. Although we have had our good and bad times, we have always managed to work through them all (no matter what it was). Even if we separated for a month or week or whatever, we’ve always loved each other, something that no one can take away from us.

About two years ago, I conceived our daughter, Serenity Raiyn. Even though we were happy together and me being the drama-free person that I am… I have never been more over-joyed and ecstatic. I was glowing! I gained weight.. more than what I thought, being athletic toned. I had the cravings, I was moody… I would cry for no reason or cry and didn’t know why I was crying at all.

Unfortunately, she is no longer with us. God has her, his angel.. as well as ours. We had talked about children before and the pregnancy was unexpected, even though I was nervous and worried. One thing I can say is.. I have no regret. So don’t take life for granted. No matter what you experience or whatever. Be Grateful and Enjoy every MOMENT.

Its a time. A moment in our life. We SHARED

I would never forget it.

Rest In Paradise Baby girl

*Serenity Raiyn Marshall*

Our Boricua Butterfly

<3Mommy’s Little Angel * Daddy’s Little Girl<3

Te Quiero Mama

-Mommy and Daddy-

when can i test ……

Hi, I’m 22 in college. I’m two days late.

My period is always on time like clockwork and I haven’t been feeling like myself. I was wondering when can I test or if I should go to the doctor to get a blood test. How do I go bout that?

Well hit me back asap, thanks.

Happy thoughts!

I dd found out about this site since I was interested on how and what to do when I get pregnant!  Since I’m not so hundred percent sure that I was pregnant, I can’t really tell the feeling of becoming pregnant and becoming a mommy soon! I just wanna know what the others would tell when they become one of the many mommies out there!

When I was reading some stories here in the StandUpGirl site, I was so disappointed on the number of the teenagers/young pregnant women who tried or stick it into their mind to abort the baby, not to mention the MOTHERs who tolerate/FORCED their daughters to do the abortion.

I’ve been having the symptoms of a pregnant woman… I vomit, I can’t sleep easily even though I really want to sleep always, that I wasn’t been before. I do usually cramp for foods but I really notice some differences. Lately, especially on the amount i eat. Many nights, I cried since I don’t feel well, thinking that it was so hard to feel this way (I wasn’t still sure if I’m pregnant). The reason that I don’t still want to know the truth is that “I don’t want to know that I’m not pregnant (if I’m not really pregnant), I don’t know what to do if I’m not pregnant! I’ve/we’ve been married for almost 2 years (June 28) and I’m not getting younger anymore. That is why I/we are hoping that there will be baby soon!

I don’t want to be disappointed when I know I wasn’t pregnant…

I don’t know what to feel if I confirm that I’m pregnant!

I really wanna feel the happiness that you feel!

Lessons From My Angel

I have my first ultrasound next Tuesday to figure out a due date. Afterwards, I’ll be making an appointment for my second ultrasound to find out the sex, very exciting!

In the past week, I’ve realised a lot. I got my blood taken for the first unpleasant time and felt like I would get sick or pass out, which is teaching me that in order for something good to happen, sometimes you have to go through hell before you get there. I’ve been thrown a few curve balls from my boyfriend, friends, and myself, which is teaching me to take things as they come because what’s done is done and you can’t plan life. I’ve been working on my apartment with girlfriends, which is teaching me to live my life for another tiny soul. I used to be such a patient and loving person and over the years of broken hearts and dreams, I’ve dropped it somewhere along the road of life and haven’t yet come across it.

What I thought to be such a terrible thing in the beginning has taken a U-turn. My little angel inside of me has somehow found my patience and love, picked it up in their tiny palm and is offering it back to me. As days turn to weeks and weeks to months, I’m regaining my patience and love thanks to my little angel. I know I have a lot of learning to do, and my angel is showing me as we go along this journey together, hand in hand, heart in heart.

My Story……atm

well I’m currently 15 days late, 23/06, and I haven’t taken a test cause well, I was on antibiotics and I thought I was late because of that but maybe I was wrong. Well I might go by myself or just tell 1 of my close friends and she’d come with me to get a test before the week ends so whatever happens, happens.

I’m happy whether or not I’m pregnant so it’s all good 🙂