He Is My Heart

I loved you before I knew you. I’ve shielded your little soul since day one. People all around await to greet you with open arms and open hearts. Others in an attempt to destroy your happiness. Though they may try, they will not succeed. They come through me first and that’s as far as they will get.

I am your mommy. I am your protector. You are loved more than you will ever know. You have an army of protectors to guide you along your special path. Lay so sweetly in my arms, you’ll always stay. Safe and warm, dreaming lovely dreams. Giggle and coo so gently. Worries you will have none. You are my son. You are my heart. I will protect you always for you keep me going.

I love you, my angel.

hidden pegnancy twice

I was 16 when I found out I was pregnant.

I was shocked. I kept it to myself 4 27 weeks as I was scared of what my parents would say. Everything turned out fine though and I had a little girl. I was pregnant again at 19, this time with a boy. That pregnancy was fine except for that relationship. I then met someone else but he was older than me, which didn’t go down well with family. I was told not to see him but still did and I ended up pregnant again. I kept this from my parents till 34 weeks.

Now my daughter is three months and beautiful and things weren’t as bad as I thought would be!!

Justified cheating? and Maybe Pregnant?

By my user name, anyone can tell that I am full of guilt. I recently met this guy a couple of months ago and he truly is a great guy but…..

We had some problems with him being overbearing and kind of controlling. I tried to drop little hints to him about his actions but he just wasn’t getting the point I was trying to make. We then, one night, got into a heated argument and he tried to confine me in the bedroom (so we could talk, which at that point was not happening for me). He squeezed me so hard he bruised my rib. I’m not a stupid girl but by no means do I think he really meant to hurt me. We talked and worked things out, blah blah blah. The things I told him I was looking for and needed, he said he was and could be.

After about a week with little to no change, I started looking for a way out. Instead of talking to him again, I started looking for a way out. A friend who is my best guy friend asked me to go hang out with him. I didn’t hesitate. This was no different than any other time or was it? We hung out and ended up at his house, talking about our relationships. One thing led to another and we had sex.

I went home as if nothing had happened. (my boyfriend lives with me.) I told myself I wasn’t going to tell him I was looking to get out anyway. Well, that didn’t happen. We ended up talking and things started changing in our relationship for the better. But still, I wasn’t going to tell him I had been unfaithful.

Our relationship has been going a lot better. Until now, I haven’t given the unfaithful night a thought but now I am 2 and a half weeks late on my period. I don’t want to take a test but I know I need to find out.

What’s a girl to do? I do know that cheating was wrong. I do know that I was wrong. But can cheating be justified. The part that scares me is if I am pregnant, how do I explain?????????????

now what .

Well, I made my decision today. all of my close friends are being very supportive and that’s one of the reasons why I’m deciding to continue this pregnancy.

I’m very excited and very nervous. This is gonna be VERY hard but I know that it’ll all be worth it in the end. Now the one thing left to do is tell Mother. I’m nervous and have no clue what to saaay . . . 🙁

It’ll break her heart to know her baby is having a baby of her own. I’m really nervous …

Coping with the consequnces

Coping with the consequences of my forced abortion 1 and 1/2 years ago has been an awful experience for me and my current boyfriend.

I have been with him ten months now and he has been so supportive, unlike my ex who was more interested in sex with another girl during the whole experience even while he was still with me. I haven’t felt like myself since having the abortion firstly as it wasn’t my choice and I feel maybe it was the wrong decision.

I find myself sat at home for hours on end on the internet looking at cots, prams, clothes, and everything else for babies and I am desperate to be a mum!!

I URGE YOU TO WAIT!

To all the young girls of SUG who are TTC…….I URGE YOU TO WAIT!!

Some of you may know my story, some may not, but when I first joined SUG, I was a 19-year-old girl who was desperately wanting a baby. Like some of you, I cried for one, prayed for one, spent so much time looking at baby clothes, pregnancy sites, and parenting sites. Hoping and wishing every month my period would be a no-show and stay that way until I gave birth to a beautiful baby. I, like you, felt a twinge at the sound of a baby crying or laughing and felt the longing at the sight of a newborn or a pregnant woman passing me by. I was in your shoes so deep it consumed me. For a whole year, I spent my energy, my wishes, and my prayers asking to finally get pregnant. I had those many nights of tearful solitude. I got jealous, I got angry, I got woeful, I got frustrated, I felt defeated, diminished, and denied of my right to be a mother. I asked God ‘Why?!’ too many times to mention. I imagined and dreamed about the baby I hoped would come soon. I envisioned my labour, knew what names, what kind of birth, what the room decor for my baby would be. Like you might have now; I had it all planned. I was ready. I had the fiancé, a job, my own place, a great plan… But I’m so glad I didn’t get pregnant.

I had a job. But one with no future. I had my own home but it was barely enough for me and my BF. I had a plan but it relied on most things going smoothly and according to that plan. I had a strong relationship with my Fiancé, but going through certain dark times would have only damaged our young family. No – two broken people cannot make good parents unless they wait for life to provide a time for great healing and strengthening. You may ‘feel’ you’re ready but we are all ready for the fantasy. The reality is ALWAYS unknown. You are never sure until you’re in it. And by then, its irreversible.

You’re only young once. Youth is irreplaceable and time doesn’t rewind. A baby will not fill that empty hole you feel inside. A baby is a life, not a solution.

Please just wait….You’ll be thankful you did.

xxx