I am a 29 year old single mother of one and I just found out that I was Preg, right before Christmas.
Now I would love to have my baby, but my situation is crazy. The guy I’m preg. from is married and don’t want me to have the baby. Now this may sound easy, but it’s not cause one part of me wants to have my baby and one part don’t so I don’t know what to do. What if I get the abortion and then I go crazy, start hearing the baby’s crying and kill myself inside for doing it? Or if I have her and can’t take care of her the way I should? OR worse, he get mad cause I say I want to keep it and he kill me and the baby? This is all that is going through my mind and I only have 2 more weeks to choose which way I’m going to go.
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?
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I fell in love with the most amazing man but when I needed him the most, he walked away.
My world fell apart and everything I learned got destroyed. I’m sixteen years old and I stepped into the unknown and lost it all. The day I told my boyfriend I was pregnant, I saw him shatter right in front of me. He wanted an abortion and I couldn’t do that. It’s against everything I am and believe in. After that, he cheated on and then walked away.
My family, friend, and my church community are my supports. I have an amazing doctor who cares a lot.
The man I fell in love with is a total trainwreck but I can’t save him because somehow, I make thing worse. He is going to have to save himself.
So meh &n& my boyfriend have been together for about 2 years.
We met when we were 13 &n& made it official a lil aftuh we turned 14. We’ve been through hell &n& back, dayum near literally. &n& even though we ain’t perfect, I’m totally alriqht with dhat cuz ain’t no type relationship perfect. But we’re happy &n& we might be having a baby on dha way soon! We have dha support of our friendsz &n& a lot of our family &n& dhatsz really all we need. We have dha money &n& we’re pretty stable, &n& even though we’re younq, we know what we’re doing. . .;
We’ve had 3 scaresz previous to dhisz ,but dhisz time, we think it’sz actually qonna happen but we’re ironically not scared. I’ll be movinq in with hisz mom &n& him in about 3 monthsz if dha test comesz out positive. But if it doesn’t, dha disappointment’ll fade &n& we’ll qo on wit our livesz. I’m not afraid ,&n& I’m not alone. Abortion isn’t an option &n& hopefully, my baby’ll be healthy. I plan ta do cyber skoolinq if I’m positive ,&n& smokinq &n& drinkinq won’t be a part of meh anymore.
I’m not confused. I don’t have a quilty conscience about it. I’ve hopefully been blessed with a baby &n& I hope to be a qreat mother even if I’m only a teenaqer. I still qotta lot of growing up ta do, but I’m learninq quick enouqh. I don’t want people ta judqe meh ,because nobody knowsz meh, therefore i’m dhat unpredictable. Therefore, I’m my own person.
THEREFORE, no one has dha riqht ta judqe someone like myself.
Last April, I found out I was pregnant.
I was incredibly scared but I knew I could do it, I started to get kinda excited. Then when I told my boyfriend, he was happy and willing to stand by my side. He also has a four-year-old, and she was excited to have a brother or sister. But 2 days before my birthday, May 3rd, I had a miscarriage. I was devastated. I was so excited and ready to hold my own baby, but I couldn’t help but feel like it was all my fault that I lost him/her. I still cry about it and when I see people with their new babies, I feel some jealousy. I don’t mean to and I know it isn’t their fault.
This December is when He/She would of been born. But to remember my unborn baby which is all I can do I got a tattoo of a star with certain colors, Pink because he/she was going to be eccentric, I know. And black because that is the baby’s father’s favorite color and he is a part of our baby. I can not forget that. But for any of you who had a miscarriage, I am truly sorry. It is a hard thing to go through. I am still coping.
So I had dhisz dream dhe othuh niqht. Ironic little thinq, but I think it could be a messaqe.
I was wobblin across dha street ta Applebee’s (whea muh man worksz lOl] &n& I walked in, yay, biq huqe belly &n& people just kept askin meh how far alonq I was &n& dha due date. Dhen it skipped to when I was in labor. My boyfriend was spazzin out when he seen dha babys head <3 . Dhen it skipped up aqain ta whean we was takin our first trip ta kindergarden, walkin into dha classroom, full of toys &n& wat not .
&n& quess what !!!
IT WAS A BOYY
