random fed upness!

Just a rant really, hmmm I’m so fed up right now. I live with my parents, so does my 18 month old and my partner and I feel so suffocated by it all. 7 people in a small 3 bed house and it’s really draining me now. My parents don’t know or won’t accept the limitations when it comes to my daughter.

The teaching, discipline, and major decisions are mine and no one else’s but i get overridden! I say no sweets and they give them to her. Talia has a paddy and I chose to ignore her and they smother her with attention which makes her worse.

I know that they are trying to help but it’s making me feel less like the parent and not in control. I’m very sensitive and I know that I am but this is most certainly not me being too sensitive.

I can see the future and in it, my child has no respect for me or my authority because someone else is always undermining me. Fair dos’, my mother has raised 3 children and knows her stuff but I also know how to raise my child and am doing a pretty dam good job I think!

My daughter is hardly a walking dictionary and refers to a few things with the same word but when she shouts for mammy or daddy, my parents go running before me and my partner have a chance to move. its like they actually think they are the parents sometimes and to be honest it is slightly freaky.

There are also the subtle hints of us finding our own place (with this credit crunch, its not so easy) but we are trying and they invited us to move in because our house was damp.

I feel a little out of control of my own life and everything at the minute. i just needed to rant a bit randomly. Even if no one reads this, it still has made me feel better as if I have just stood up and screamed lol x

What do I do now ?

Hey, I’m only 15 and I think I may be pregnant.

I have a lot of the symptoms like back pain, headaches, feeling sick all the time, really bad heartburn, feeling dizzy, and my belly is starting to hurt a little bit and kinda looks like it is getting bigger, and so on. And I don’t know what to do? And if I am, I’m very scared because my mom is the type that will kick me out and I am still with my boyfriend and he knows that I might be; but I have no clue at all how I’m going to tell her.

What do I do? I am truly scared. Can anyone help me?

My Story

I finally decided to write my story,  i will do my best with my English…

When I was 16, I was constantly raped by a close person. After a few months, I got pregnant, and he made me say that the father was my ex-boyfriend, who was a very good person but I wasn’t having sex with him. He made me do that by threatening me for almost 3 months that I stayed in my hometown. My parents were very supportive, and I really wanted the baby.

So my parents took me away, where the father couldn’t find me, because he was looking for me (I don’t know how it’s call it, but it’s a house where help preg women in whatever situation). All was good, I felt peaceful and I thought my pregnancy was fine, but my mom saw me not really healthy and the medical assistance wasn’t good, my mom said. Then they took to the USA when I was about 7 months prego, and just a week after, I started to have contractions. I didn’t want to but I went to the hospital and I had preclamcia. The doctor could wait only two days for the baby get strong and he born on Tuesday, November 09.

My baby was diagnosed with hidrocefalia (Hydrocephaly), its was a really bad time. He was in the hospital for a month, each day hoping a new good advance. He was in good hands. The doctors did a good job, and I really appreciated it.

After a year and a half, I came back to home, enjoyed university and, didn’t need it, but I get a job. Just when all was going really great, I fell in love with someone in the office, and now I’m pregnant again. Its different because the father it around and he is happy. But I’m only 4 months and the baby its already diagnosed with gastroschisis and she will need surgery just born.

I’m too scared. Every moment, I feel like my babies are paying for my mistakes. I love them, even my unborn baby because I can feel her (its a girl).  And I don’t regret, I just feel  guilty…

Thanks for taking the time to read.

i wanna be excepted…

I wanna be accepted….by all my friends…even if I’m not or if I am… Just 2 more weeks till I actually find out the results. I mean, I’m 14! This shouldn’t be happening at this time. I still have my whole life ahead of me and I’m just throwing it all away day by day. I need help BIG time.

14 and maybe pregnant. I go to school, get “good” grades, have excellent friends, and just an overall good life and I want it to stay like that… My current boyfriend just broke up with me 🙁 and it might be his.

I really do not know what to do.

I may be pregnant

I’m only 14 and my boyfriend and I have been together for almost 2 years and I think I may be pregnant.

I don’t know what to do.

I’m So Scared… What Do I Do???

I’m 17 and nine weeks pregnant….. The father of my child is nineteen. I denied my pregnancy even though I knew I was truly pregnant.

When the doctor told me I was pregnant, I cried my heart out. My child’s father was there and he was so happy. I didn’t understand why. I hid all my pregnancy papers and pills so my mama wouldn’t find out. Then came the morning sickness. My mom heard me throwing up and just asked me, was I pregnant… For some reason, I couldn’t lie. We sat on the bed and cried together. She told me she wanted me to keep the baby cause it’s a blessing.

Lately, all me and my baby daddy do is fight and I’m starting to think I’m going to be a single teen mom…. I’m thinking about aborting but my mom won’t let me. I’m so scared and don’t know what to do. I didn’t even finish school… Somebody please help me, please.