Pregnant Again!

I’m 24 years old and I’m 9 weeks pregnant and truly confused about whether or not I should go through with this pregnancy.

I’ve always been against abortions and have always talked my friends out of getting them. It is easier said than done though. When it’s actually “YOU” in the messed up situation, it’s hard to not consider it. Here’s the situation!!! I actually have a 6 month baby boy and now I find out that I’m pregnant again so soon. I was supposed to get on birth control right after having my son but was confused at first about the method I wanted to use and then eventually kind of forgot about it. Huge Mistake! I have a lot of support taking care of my son but I couldn’t imagine telling my family that I am pregnant again. I just can’t bear disappointing my parents. They’re expecting me to go back to college next semester and I know if I have this baby, there’s a huge chance that’s out of the question.

As for my baby’s father, he’s all for the abortion. Financially, we just can’t afford another baby right now. And on top of things, we are currently not together. I just found out he was cheating on me AGAIN! I forgave him before but dont know if can do so again. I actually found out that he was unfaithful to me during the entire length of my pregnancy. I can’t imagine going through all the stress all over again. He was so unsupportive at that critical time in my life. I just have the feeling that he’s going to drive me out of my mind during this pregnancy also.

In my heart, I know I can go through this pregnancy but I’m scared I will be neglecting my son eventually. I know I’m going to get to the point where its going to be difficult for me to take care of him like I should and I am so afraid of that. I want to be the best mom I can possibly be to him and I feel like I won’t be able to if I’m pregnant. But then again, I also feel like I’ll be choosing one child over another. But that’s my baby’s brother or sister. And who am I to decide who gets to live and who does not? It could’ve easily been my son who is already here that I’m trying to abort and I can’t imagine my life without him. I have so many What ifs? What if this my only other chance of having another child? And I really want a girl also, so what if this is my only girl? Its just so confusing. I feel like if God didn’t think I could do it, He wouldn’t have put me n this situation. Basically, i just don’t want anyone judging me. I’m unemployed, not in school, unmarried, and have a 6 month old baby. WOW!!!

Please someone help me make a decision. I’m completely confused!

Abortion or not?

Hello. I’m 18, 19 in 2 months. I live in the U.K. I have just found out that I am pregnant and I have no idea what to do.

My boyfriend thinks we’re too young and I’m being understanding about it, but I don’t know if I can have an abortion. I’m scared, confused, and just basically stressed out thinking about it all. My boyfriend said if I have the baby, he will support me and be there for me, but I have hardly any money and I want to bring up a child that I can support well financially.

Can anyone help me?

due date: TODAY! ;)

Well, my DUE is TODAY on my PERIOD but WITHIN THE WHOLE DAY NO PERIOD COME.

Hopefully NO PERIOD., YES PREGNANT!

I felt afraid to know the TRUTH.

I am afraid to know because I am afraid of the word “NEGATIVE”

which probably could make me so.. DEPRESSED! wtf! Hope I AM!

PS:

I’m gonna UPDATE you guys everyday!

Please PRAY for my BLESSING! Thanks! 😉

lots of love.,

CAMS2KNOW

Back To Normal-Or As Normal As It Can Be

So,  I feel relatively OK. Which is strange due to the fact I lost my baby. It was terrifying and I don’t remember most of it.

I’m back to work. Working only three shifts a week at a local restaurant. The hours are decent. The tips are great! I usually work during the day (the lunch shift), that way I can spend time with my fiancé. And I get the workers who tip great just because of my body. Yes, I did say my body. I’ve been working out non-stop. Every single morning, I go for a nice long run with my fiancé (sometimes stopping so he can take a breather). Releasing all my pent-up anger/energy/frustration out on that run. I’m almost fully back to my old body. the body I had before I got pregnant. All I have that is different is a bit bigger breasts, but I can’t change those.  But, it’s strange… Everyone acts as if I’m a ticking time bomb. As if I’m going to burst at any moment. That I’ll start bawling my eyes out or that I’ll snap on someone. They are always there as if ‘OK, be ready just in case something happens and she finally breaks’.  I don’t think they understand that I’m fine. And I’m not going to snap. Or start bawling my eyes out randomly. Why are they like this? How long will it last?

When will my life go back to normal-so I can plan my wedding?

worried

So I’m now 20 weeks and 6 days pregnant and everything was going really well.

My baby has a strong heartbeat of 147 and it moves around all the time, But I’m having this uncontrollable pain. So I went to the doctor’s and he thinks I could be having premature contractions. But he couldn’t tell me for sure because my cervix was closed. Now I have to wait a couple more days to see if the pain will go away with meds and a heat pack and so far it’s not really working all that well. So if the pain is there throughout tomorrow, I have to call my doctor’s office again and hope that they can get me to an ultrasound to make sure everything is going smoothly with the baby.

A little worried about the premature contractions and just hoping it’ll get better. I love my baby<333

Angels.

Angels

Once upon a time, there was a child ready to be born.  So one day, she asked God:

They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow, but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?
Among the many angels, I chose one for you. She’ll be waiting for you and will take care of you.

But, tell me, here in Heaven, I don’t do anything else but sing and smile – that’s enough for me to be happy.
Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you everyday. And you will feel your angel’s love and be happy.

And how am I going to be able to understand when people talk to me, if I don’t know the language men talk?
Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak.

And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?
Your angel will place your hands together and teach you how to pray.

I’ve heard that on earth there are bad men. Who will protect me?
Your angel will defend you – even if it means risking her life.

But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore.
Your angel will always talk to you about me and will teach you the way for you to come back to me – even though I will always be next to you.

At that moment, there was much peace in heaven.  But voices from earth could already be heard and the child, in a hurry, asked softly:

Oh, God, if I’m about to leave now, please tell me my angel’s name.
Your angel’s name is of no importance. You will just call your angel, “Mommy”.