Hi! Guys, I’m 16 years old and about to have a baby girl.
When I first found out I was pregnant, I was shocked. I thought this would never happen 2 me but it did. At first, I just did not want 2 believe it but I had 2 face reality. I was so mad at myself and worst of all, I was terrified 2 tell my mother. But I’ve overcome all of it.
And today, here I am, with just 4 more months 2 go.
I don’t even know where to begin…
I am 20 years old and will be 21 in Feb. I am already a mommy of a beautiful little girl who will be 2 in Feb… I just recently found out I am 5 weeks pregnant as of last Thursday. I’ve completely been against abortions since I could remember… but faced with the decision now, it’s complicated… I’ve only been with the father for about only 5 months, who is already a father and is completely against abortions… Which is why he doesn’t know about his own child yet=/… I feel guilty bc I don’t know what to do. I went to the doctors to see how far I was and they did an ultra-sound which made it even harder… There was only a little black dot and I just stared when he told me. It was like, I knew after 3 positive pregnancy tests but it made it so real when I actually saw it…
I didn’t even talk to my doctor about my unsureness because I was too ashamed for even feeling the way I do. He was so excited for me and said here’s a picture of your dot… I wanted to be excited and I wanted to run home like I did with my first pregnancy and show my family “My Dot”… But nobody knows except for my mom, who is torn for me… I am terrified though… My daughter’s father left when she was 12 weeks old and hasn’t done anything but hurt us the past 2 years. I’ve done everything, but make him be in her life… I’ve become very independent and wouldn’t change my past for ANYTHING because my daughter is my world. Without her, I wouldn’t be the same… She’s the reason I wake up every morning. I’m in love with being a mother…
And then, after almost 2 years of being single and in and out of guys who just weren’t right for my daughter and I, I met the guy I am with now, who seems so perfect for me… But it all just happened so fast… He’s WONDERFUL TO ME AND MY DAUGHTER and my family loves him, but I just think a 2nd child right now would just make things complicated. Which sounds so selfish, I know, but I still live at home with my mom, work at a restaurant as a hostess, and I make enough to get by, and just got everything together to go to college to be a RN… I am just completely torn. My mom is worried because she says I cant just block it out… I know I can’t and that’s what I’ve done as if I don’t have to face it…
Yesterday, I told my mom to make the appt. She said are you sure and I just felt like I had made up my mind to have an abortion… She called me today and said okay, I am going to call and I said no… She came home and said that I needed to stop denying I was pregnant… I knew I needed other opinions and I didn’t want it to be from anyone that I knew so I got on here… I know no one can make the decision for me or make my mind up… I just thought that maybe hearing other stories or opinions would help… I’m lost and hate feeling this way… I just want to do the right thing and I don’t know what the right thing is right now… I keep wondering how I’ll feel if I go through with it and after reading some of the stories, I don’t want to regret anything, but I don’t want to just get by. I want to better myself before bringing another child into this world, but at the same time I don’t want to take a life away =/ .
I’m 17 years old. And I found out I’m 4 weeks and 4 days pregnant.
I’ve only been with my boyfriend for 2 months. He wants me to get an abortion asap, but my mom once had one and still cries about it till this day, and I don’t want to. He says that I have to because he doesn’t want the baby. I don’t know what to do, and I need some advice ASAP.
I would like to keep this baby, because I don’t want to have an abortion. HELP!
The 1st day I knew I was pregnant was Oct. 14. That day, I can’t believe what my friend told me… My friend is the 1st one who see my Pregnancy test and I didn’t believe it at 1st she let me see it… It was a cross line.. it was a PLUS… I first laugh and tell her it’s a JOKE… It’s not true it can’t be… But after that, my tears began to fall and telling her and myself it’s not true.. It felt the world is crashing on me… My friend cried w/ me and telling me I can feel your pain… After that, I texted my boyfriend, telling him I did it and it was Positive… I told him I didn’t want to be alone that time. I thought it was a good idea to be w/ him because of the mixed emotions I have…
I know he doesn’t want to have a baby and at that time, I was too… But Oct. 16, we went to the hospital and we went there for an abortion, but after the scan to make sure I’m real pregnant, they let me see the baby inside me… I saw the heartbeat moving and it felt so wonderful but I thought that time was soon I won’t have the baby… We just waiting for my boyfriend’s salary for abortion..
But for everyday of waiting and for everyday I feel the baby inside me, I was more loving the baby…. I more want to save him.. But I’m scared because I know I can’t support my baby alone and I don’t want my baby to not have a father like me.. I really don’t know what to do… If I’ll fight for my baby or think that my boyfriend is right 🙁
You know the 1st time I knew I was pregnant, I heard lots of bad things. They all hurt me because of wanting my baby to abort, but the truth is I don’t want to abort the baby. It’s my boyfriend that don’t want the baby 🙁
I really feel lost and everything! I don’t know….
I’ve got this black glass heart.
I’ve taped it so many times…
Over and over,
But the pain keeps on
Puncturing it…
Again and Again.
I shouldn’t’ve trusted you from
The very beginning, the start.
So now, here I am, brokenhearted.
And flowing out these stupid rhymes.
All I wanted was a friend;
You gave me way too much more.
I loved you until the end…
But now I must settle the score.
Some how I will and nothing more.
I’ve got Heart Shaped scars
Traced by my trusty razor.
I’m leaving the skin you kissed
Imperfect and marred.
My smile, it looks so real.
God, I’m the perfect impersonator.
I’m impersonating a happy person;
But My heart is shattered.
I’ve got Love driven into my wrist.
But the love we had wasn’t true.
So here I am…Sitting alone…
Tears falling, mixing with eyeliner
To make a slight gray flood.
And here I am…
With scarlet red blood
Falling off my Alabaster brown wrist.
And mixing with the blood of my
Broken Glass Heart.
I’m 15 years old and I have a wonderful boyfriend.
We’ve been together for a while now. I love him with everything in my heart and he feels the same way. He never really had a father figure in his life; so his goal is to become the father he never had. We have talked this over many times and we’ve decided we want to start a family together. I’m a virgin and I’m kind of scared, but I really want to have a baby now.
Help!?
