A Woman Scorned

Hello everyone.

This morning, I found out that all of my coworkers not only learned that I am pregnant, but that I am getting an abortion as well.

I’ve been pregnant for about 2.5 months now, with no options but to wait. You see, I live and work currently in the middle of nowhere, Oklahoma. The nearest town with any kind of help is Oklahoma City, but with no car, and not enough time to get there to take care of this, I had to wait for the opportunity to return home to Michigan and take care of it here.

Since February, I’ve kept this quiet, until recently when I had to explain my situation to my boss. I had only told one other person, who had not told anyone else. We’re close and respect each other far too much to spread each others’ personal lives around.

But the boss told his other half, who swore to me not a world would be spoken.

And yet, the entire crew now knows of my situation.

I’ve never felt so betrayed in my life.

Something so serious, so PERSONAL… And it’s all over the workplace now.

My friend is telling me to just keep my chin up and don’t worry about what people think or say, but when you assume you have friends and find out they just talk about you when you’re not around… It’s hard to push aside.

Should I?

I want to get pregnant again, more than anything in this world. I don’t know if I should do it or not…Help?

In my heart, I know it’s going to be alright if I get pregnant again… But I cant decide…

Baby Isaac!

Yesterday at 9:36, my 2nd brother was born!

He is the 10th in my family.  He is 10 lbs and 9 oz.  What a chunk! He is such a blessing.

Love you, Isaac!
Your Sister

Confused & Upset!!

About 3 months ago now, I hadn’t had a period for 2 months.

Me & my boyfriend really believed I was pregnant as I had symptoms because we had talked about what we were going to do. I had drilled it into my head that there was no doubt that I was 100% pregnant. We did a pregnancy test before I came on my period and it said: “negative”. I was absolutely devastated. I had believed so much that I was pregnant then when it said I wasn’t I was heartbroken. It’s been about a month now since this happened and I am still not over it. I didn’t mention it to my boyfriend because obviously, he’s copped with it just fine but I haven’t. I have recently been put on antidepressants for other reasons and I was thinking to wonder if that’s why I wasn’t pregnant? I’m not 100% sure and would love to hear if anybody does know about these things. Also with what’s happened, I’ve found myself more depressed than I was before. I’ve been really paranoid saying that “I’m never going to be able to have children” as similar situations have happened before.

I’m really confused and would appreciate any advise.

Thank you

xx

so much excitment :)

I’m in my second trimester, exactly 20 weeks along.

Tomorrow is my check-up with my new OB and I’m so excited. Because for the past few days, my baby has been really moving inside my womb and I can’t help it. I’m so happy. No one can make me feel this happiness. You’re just sitting, watching TV, listening to music, eating, chatting with someone, and I can really feel my baby is moving and for a while, I need to stop whatever I’m doing and talk to my baby. 🙂

I’m also hoping that tomorrow, we will know the gender of my baby. (cross fingers) because my baby is 20 weeks already. 🙂

My boyfriend and I were so much excited for tomorrow! 🙂

Good luck to me!

the day i will never forget

Hi, I fell pregnant when I was 20 years old and had only been with my boyfriend for about 4 months.

So, quite a shock to us both, but we were happy and decided to keep the baby. Everything was going great, no problems at all. I had my dating scan and everything was fine. My pregnancy progressed and I bonded with my baby. I was so happy to know that I was soon going to be a mam. When it came to my 20-week scan, I found out I was having a girl. I was so overjoyed that I left the hospital with a picture of my baby and went to tell all my family the good news. They were so happy.

But then 3 days later, I experienced some really bad pain and bleeding. I knew that wasn’t good. So I went to the hospital to get checked out. They monitored my baby’s heartbeat and it was strong. I thought that had got to be a good sign. Then the doctor come and checked me and told me and my partner that I was having a miscarriage and there was little chance of my baby girl surviving. Within that moment, my life fell apart. I didn’t know what to do. I just had to go through the normal labour. It was awful. 4 hours later, my baby was born. I looked at the midwife, hopeful, waiting for my baby to cry. She, she never did. They took my baby away. A few hours later, I went to see my baby girl. She was perfect. We named her Amygrace.

In time, we had her funeral, the worst day of our life. I will never forget our little angel. Last year, I fell pregnant again. Never been so scared, but I’m happy to say. I went full term and had a beautiful healthy baby boy. He is 5 month old now and is doing fantastic. We will tell him about his big sister some day and love her just as much as we do.