Um… I’m not exactly sure how these blogs work!!! So I’m just going to talk about how much my life sucks!!!!
Well, I’m 16 and 6 months pregnant with my baby girl. I was excited at first bcuz I got engaged and everything!! But now he is denying it’s his!! IDK why, but he is! I was a freaking virgin when I met him and he knows it!!! His parents don’t like me bcuz they say I’m bad 4 him! It’s not my fault he knocked up a 16-year-old. He is also white and I’m black and his parents think that’s wrong too
So…. I don’t know what to do.
I guess it’s no surprise that a 17-year-old with piercings from drug-addict parents and a white trash background got knocked up. I guess it’s no surprise that my boyfriend is almost ten years older than me and lives in another state. These things, society expects from me.
What they don’t expect is I never considered abortion, I don’t plan to sell my baby, and I’m a really good student. Well as of today, I haven’t taken a test, but I’m a week late for my period. I’ll be taking the test on Sunday. How do I know I’m pregnant?
1. I’m late
2. My dad gave me a phoenix necklace, which to me, a phoenix is the symbol for a baby
How did this happen?
I could simply tell you I’m an idiot or make up some lie about needing to score. But that would be wrong. I don’t do drugs. I have had sex for things before; food, money for food, rides, etc. But that’s not how I got here.
I got here because for once in my life, I decided to act my age, I decided to be irresponsible and throw caution to the wind. My boyfriend came to pick me up on Friday and that night we had sex, I told him I wasn’t on birth control and to pull out and he did. That morning we had sex again, but this time he didn’t. I yelled at him and he said it was no big deal. He’d get me Plan B. All day, I bugged him to get it. Finally, at 8 pm, we went to the pharmacy. He came out empty-handed and told me they wouldn’t give it to a guy and I flipped out and he said he was kidding, it wasn’t open. So we went to a different pharmacy and when he came out, he hid it under his shirt and said they were out of it, but I heard the crinkling and got it. When we got back to his house, I was gonna take it right away, but he said to wait till it was on the hour so we could remember when I took it. So I did and then I took the first one. He had unprotected sex again that night, he said the Plan B would still work. And in the morning, we had unprotected sex again. Then in the morning, I took the second one.
Now the one detail that makes me sound horrible, but is kinda important is that this was the first time I had ever met him. But he was so sweet to me. He took me out to these amazing restaurants and bookstores and the train station. And it was just a magical evening.
So this past week, I’ve been feeling like I’m pregnant.
I had unprotected sex on the 10th and 14th day of my cycle. (I’ve ALWAYS had a perfect 28-day cycle.) I took a pregnancy test on Sunday and it was negative. I was supposed to get my period on Monday, but I got what might be my “period” today… It just started, but so far, it seems like it’s starting out normal with a normal flow… Could I still be pregnant even if this is happening?
My body basal temperature has been higher than normal the past few days and just yesterday, I had a lot of cervical mucus, which is not normal for me at this point during my cycle. I’ve been feeling like I’m about to throw up which isn’t normal and my stomach has been cramping which I never get.
Tell me what you think!
Well, I’m 15 and pregnant.
I’m meant to get my period every 18th and this time I didn’t. I am 3 weeks and 2 days pregnant, and I have been feeling extremely tired every day. I do have very low iron levels I have since I was a baby so I’m anemic which sucks cuz that also makes me very tired and pail never really have much energy. I don’t live with my mum. I got kicked out on the 10th of September last year. I have been living with my boyfriend for a month now. We have been together for 4 months. ATM, I love him so much he is the only one who knows I’m pregnant he is happy with it, I think. The only problem is I don’t receive any money at all in 14 days. Centrelink will start paying my boyfriend’s mum my payment for living away from home until I’m 16.
PS I am keeping the baby, 🙂 but can somebody please help me out?
Three months along & I found myself in the hospital…
I was having a m/c…. I had to have a DNC. They said the drugs would put me out of it enough that I would know what was going on. That I wouldn’t remember…..I wouldn’t hear, wouldn’t see.
I did hear & I did see… I do remember.
We were so sad. We wanted that baby. My man brought home a small porcelain doll with dark hair & beautiful skin just like our baby would have had. She sings a beautiful song, that still brings tears these many years later.
The first was the hardest, both physically & emotionally… I had another 4 after the first. I lost all of those babies at about a month along. I couldn’t understand why. The Doctors were looking & finding nothing.
Finally, they found an answer. Finally, they found a way that maybe I could carry a child to term. We tried again. I followed the instructions carefully. I made it past the first, then the second & third month…
This pregnancy hurt deep into the marrow of my bones, I felt tired & weak throughout the whole thing… But I made it through. I carried our baby to term!
This morning, that baby picked up a porcelain doll with dark hair & beautiful skin that sits in our room. “Is this yours, Mom?” … “Have you had her since you were little, Mom?”…
“No sweetheart, not since I was little. Your dad gave her to me.” I wound the key on her back, & as she sang her song today, I was able to smile.
Today is a day of celebration. Today is a day of victory.
Last night, I had my first total breakdown in months.
I was just a shivering, sobbing heap of misery. I felt so pathetic. I have no coping mechanism anymore for when I get like that, I’ve been fine for so long now that I’ve forgotten how that craziness feels… How strong the desire to have a baby can be when the freshness of the past hits you anew.
I’m so desperate to cut again, just to feel that familiar sting that makes the whole world seem better again.
