I just turned 19 when I found out I was going to be a mommy.

It was a month after my birthday. I found out on Jan 06, everything changed after I saw the test. I didn’t know what to do. I don’t have a mom to help me through my pregnancy. So I guess, so what, I am alone. I have only one person there for me and that is my boyfriend.

I did some things I wasn’t happy about after I found out. I dumped him. I don’t know why I did. He was the love of my life He is the dad of the baby but we are back together now and have been for a couple months now. I don’t have a GED or anything like that. I had no job, didn’t know how I was going to take care of my baby, but things are looking better now. I have a grandma to help me out but she already has a grandson from my brother and she doesn’t really like me.

Anyways, I guess really all I’m trying to say is for the girls who are going to be a mommy, you’re not the only one. I don’t have anyone there for me but one person and thank God for that. I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have him there for me. Now I am 37 weeks and still don’t know what to do. All I know is that I am going to try my best to be the best mom ever, not like my mom.

I am having a boy and I already love him to death. If anything would ever happen to him, I don’t know wat i would……