mommaofboys

Meg I can totally relate to you and what you have gone through. I am married now but have experianced 2 unplanned pregs. The father of my oldest abandonned us, I felt sooo alone. I stayed out of relationships for the first year of my sons life, but I was living with my mom and sister(also was a single mom) and they drove me to the edge. I started drinking occasionally and not caring about myself and wasnt a very good mom for a couple years. The most painful thing is trying to find love in the wrong places and always come up empty, and put your kids last. I had a couple of failed relationships that added to it. i dont know how to not be co-dependant. I put myself in a bad situation and was raped. Thats how my second son came to be, I did meet my hubby 2 weeks after that and he has been daddy for the last 5 years of his life. I sometimes think what would happen if I was alone, would I be able to cope would I run into the arms of another man? We have another son too, so its not an option.Only through the strength of our Lord and Saviour can we become strong…….I vow to break the cycle.