oh baby! i feel so terrible for you. i had an abortion over twenty years ago and it still hurts. the only thing that got me through was asking God for forgiveness and knowing that he really did forgive me. at first i didn’t beleive that he did but as i desired to get closer to him i learned that if we are truly sorry He will forgive us for anything we do. He loves us so incredibly that He sent His son Jesus to pay the price for our sin. DEATH! that’s what i deserved. but Jesus did it for me. I pray for you to find comfort in the comforter. write back if you want to chat.