All sounds like really good advice. I wish I new of this site 17 years ago when I was in the same spot you are. But I had no one and I done it myself.Just remember life is what you make of it. god will not give you no more then you can handle. Thing’s are not always good but it is those things that make you a stronger person.And if I can do it so can you.You will find happyness in your life.Just let it happen.And let him go you can do better.You will be strong and you will be fine.