all I can say is keep the baby without him I didnt have a dad and I am thankful for that now! woman have enough love to raise a child on there own, when its your time you will find someone that will love you both more than anything! when you look at that baby you wont see your ex you will see a precious little face that needs you and loves you! my aunt have an abortion and now has three boys but always wanted a girl and still to this day has nightmares that it was a girl an other horrible stuff, god has given you a gift, some woman cant have kids! and like you said things happen for reosons!!!!!!!!! my husband says you can do it!!!!!!!god bless