I am new to this site but have been in your shoes. I am now 33 , but when I was 24 I had a baby out of wedlock. I hope for the first 6 months that he would change his mind. 8 years later, he has never seen our son. My husband adopted him and In time I began to realize that my relationship with the father was unhealthy, toxic and did me no good as a mother. God brought my child a father that was more than I could have every hoped for.
Honestly the connection I don’t think will go away. Its what you do with it. There will always be an emotional tie there. That doesn’t mean its healthy to act on it. You have to break free from that and see it for what it is. Let God do some healing in your life sister.
Dawn in Oklahoma