I`m torn. I found out I was 13 weeks pregnant on tuesday. I think Its crazy because the last time I had unprotected sex with my boyfriend we immediately went to a clinic and got the day after pill. Well I guess it didn’t work and he seems to think it has to be destiny. I want to have this baby, I`m just scared for myself. I have SO many doubts. What if I suck at being a Mom, what if I regret it? from everyone I’ve talked to who has had a baby as young as me (17 turning 18 in May)younger and I’ve never heard of anyone straight up regretting it. What if I never finish school. Would life as I know it be gone entirely & my whole life be just be about the baby. Would I still be able to go out and have fun sometimes? I mean I`m not a partier to the extreme, I just like to have fun once in awhile. Basically I just think I need answers to my questions. I got a TON. I need support, I have not yet told my parents. They’re not SUPER strict my Mom knows I’ve been with my boyfriend for 2 years now. And we were planning a life together. She knows were sexually active, actually her and my Dad have told me that they’ll love me no matter what. I just don’t want to disappoint them, I’ve always wanted to be the one kid they’ve had that they were super proud of. You know?& Its just I don’t have a career, How will I make money. Thankfully I have my GED. but besides that not alot of stuff is going on for me. I thought I could do an abortion, and I still could. BUT when I went to the clinic, they took an ultrasound, The doctor gave me a copy and I asked, “does it have a heart?” & she replied “yes” I felt my own heart drop, How am I supposed to go through with this now? How can I get rid of something living off of me, Something that is me. I’m catholic and so Is my Parents. I mean my family isn’t at church every sunday. I just really want some support, and some inspiration. I just want to know that everything is going to be okay. That I can still live out a good life. I just want to know if teen parents can be happy. What helps ALOT though is my Boyfriend, He’s always been there for me. And he always will, even if were not together. He’s super responsible. and I’ve been with him for awhile. We spend every single day with each other. He is even willing to work two jobs to support me if I have the baby. I`m already feeling kinda iffy towards getting an abortion. I don`t even really want to think about it. I have to decide what I`m going to do before Saturday, I have an appointment at the Clinic and If I show up, I’ll be getting an Abortion. That’s the latest I can get one around here. I’m torn between two things.
My future and a Baby. But Can`t I have both?
