Sitting here, doing nothing………Again. Wondering what I would be doing right now if I had my Elizabeth with me.

See, I never knew if I was having a boy or a girl. But I would dream every night that it was a girl. So I named her Elizabeth. I wish I knew what she’d look like, what she’d be like, if she would be like me or her dad. But wishes don’t come true sadly :(. If they did, she would have come back to me a long time ago. I can’t relate to many girls because they still have the dad of their baby, I don’t. He left a month later. But there is something that I can tell most girls. And that is the pain doesn’t always go away. It stays, and you’ll never forget your baby. I believe that when I have kids, then God will give her back to me because this time, I can take care of her. I can tell girls that their love for their babies does not die, it just grows more.

And that love for my baby is what keeps me going. because I know that one day, I will see her again.