Sad but true. I tried the drug “X” for the second time just the night before I found out I was pregnant. And to make things worse, I had been drinking and smoking cigerettes a lot. I was looking at my options, and abortion was trying to creep its way into my life. I kept thinking, what if?! What if there is NOTHING wrong with my baby?!
The reason I wanted to share my story with you is to possibly help someone else out there that went down the same road as I did. Its really hard for me to admit I did this. The only people that know about it are my husband and best friend.
I believe there may be at least one mom that is considering abortion because of what she did. When I found out I was pregnant, I researched the internet for information on what ecstacy and alcohol could have done to my baby, and I couldn’t find anything helpful. I’ve always been pro-life, but since I’ve had my baby, I’ve become really passionate about it.
Sad but true. I tried the drug “X” for the second time just the night before I found out I was pregnant. And to make things worse, I had been drinking and smoking cigerettes a lot. I was looking at my options, and abortion was trying to creep its way into my life. I kept thinking, what if?! What if there is NOTHING wrong with my baby?! Then what if there is? I didn’t want to take that chance of ending my baby’s life and not giving him a chance at his own life just because I made a mistake. I just prayed every night that God would forgive me and make my baby healthy.
I made an appointment to see my doctor that Monday and when she asked me if I had used any type of drugs or alcohol, I lied. 🙁 I was too embarrassed to admit to what I had done. I regret it now because I believe they could have helped me more with all the problems I had during my pregnancy. I had a really rough pregnancy. (polyhydramnios, puppps, decelerations in the baby’s heart rate) I’m not sure to this day if it was from the drinking and drug use. Anyways, I’m really writing this message to say I have a BEAUTIFUL baby boy!!! HEALTHY!!! Praise God!!! He was tiny at birth, 5 lbs, but he is now 6 months old and a little fatty! hahaha I can’t even imagine my life without him now. Everyday when I wake up and go over to his crib, he gives me the biggest gummy grin! Just melts my heart. It is a big job being a mom, but trust me, IT IS SOOO WORTH IT! Just give these babies a chance at life. Life always works itself out for the good.
Ohh Dearest Jaclyn! Hi, I’m Lisa and I am from the Stand Up Girl website.
Oh my goodness what a wonderful and encouraging story you have. I’m so so proud of you for choosing life. Isn’t it amazing how our minds think these horrible things? Sometimes the worry is far worse than what we are worried about. I’m so thankful that your baby is OK!Jaclyn – when you mentioned the big gummy smile that just made me smile really big! Not a gummy one though. Hahaha!
Congratulations on being such a wonderful Stand Up Mommy!
Thank you for sharing.