I am 20 and I am the mother of two sons, 3 and almost 2.

I recently started feeling off. I am always tired, I cry constantly, I can’t stop stuffing food in my mouth, my boobs hurt, and my period is MIA. I am facing my third unplanned pregnancy.

I am going to find out for sure tomorrow, but I’m scared. I’m scared to know for sure either way… If I am, that is 9 months of worrying about how my family of 4 is going to handle being a family of 5. Worrying how my boyfriend will feel. Worrying how our families will feel.

If I am not. I am facing disappointment after feeling all these “pregnancy symptoms” and getting all worried for nothing… It always hurts.

(This is my 3rd scare since I had my second. My last one, I am sure, was a miscarriage, but I’ll never know.)