I’m 20. I’m my cousin’s live-in nanny. I should have never taken the risk and slept with anyone knowing how hard it is to look like you’re 16 and have people look down at you in the grocery store. But I did. and now, I have this wicked feeling I’m pregnant.
I’ve been feeling sick and I’m a few days late. Best part is, the possible baby’s father, my boyfriend(24), is moving out of the country in three weeks. We’ve already had a few conversations about abortion (we both do not agree with it), and he has flat-out told me he was scared of me getting pregnant, that he couldn’t afford a child right now, and neither can I. He would be gone a whole year, missing me being pregnant and the baby being born. I can’t support myself, much less a baby! I’m in my second year at the local community college. I don’t have time for a real, money-paying job because I am always watching my cousin’s babies, a 2 1/2 yr old and a 9-month-old. How would having a baby work right now? I have no idea how. The cheapest apartments over here are 600/month , and I would still need baby gear, which I suppose craigslist would be a godsend but still, it’s a lot when you don’t even have a job to start out with. I don’t think I could swing it, and I don’t think I could live with either an abortion or giving the baby to a couple who couldn’t have children.
My boyfriend and I are old enough to have known better than to trust birth control pills. I don’t know what he, or his extremely Baptist family, will say about this. His little brother is getting married in three weeks. He is leaving for a year, his parents are retiring this year. I’m living with family, my mom and close friends don’t even live in this state cuz I moved here to help my cousin out… What do I do? And what if it’s TWINS??? I’m a twin! My mother is a twin! My grandfather was a twin, his mother had EIGHT sets of twins (Greece, in the 1800’s, she was married at 13 and dead at 26. Wonder why.)
Oh, I don’t even know where to begin to end this post. Please, anyone with any advice on what to do if I am pregnant?
