Here I am! I’m supposed to be spending my time in school… Enjoying stuff such as studying… Going out with friends…… Dating, drinking, etc…… But now, the result of being a rebel child led me to this situation…
Yes, I know it’s still early… I have the chance to abort my baby as others think just to protect their embarrassment. which was my own mother’s suggestion which made me angry with her. I don’t know why she wants to add my mistakes… I mean it’s a big sin to kill a child! Especially on my part, being a teen pregnant that’s not yet married… So I ran away from home… It’s my 4th time to run away but this time, my mom threw me away and told me “I don’t have a daughter anymore!”
I knew, at first, that she already knew that I’m pregnant… My boyfriend, whom I met on Facebook, (one town apart from each other) then we started to go see each other, was my baby’s father… I don’t know why of all the other guys whom I loved so much and gave my all. Why with hi, did I let myself be pregnant? I don’t even know him that much…
He’s 22 and I’m 15…Such a difference… I’m a minor and he’s not… But when I told him through text message bout my pregnancy, I told him slowly, not exactly straight to the point… I asked him “Do you like babies?” He told me back “Why? Are you pregnant?”… I replied… “No! Of course not!”… I refused at first… And he told me back “Alas! You must be sterile!”… And I thought he would want to have a kid… Then I told him I’m not yet sure if I am… But I’m gonna buy a pregnancy test for further assurance, but he told me “I hope you’re not so that you can continue your studies.” Then I swallowed a little bit hard… Then there it is… I am really pregnant…
Then I set a date for us to meet personally to tell him that I’m pregnant… He told me, why are your eyes hollow?.. I told him I’m pregnant… Let’s talk about this matter… Then we went to a restaurant and talked about this… He’s very calm like he’s not worrying at all… (One reason that I don’t want to marry him is because he told me I’m his 106th girlfriend. Think about it!). He told me that he’s gonna support the baby, but nobody should know about this. But how can I keep it? Sooner and later it will… Then we started arguing bout the baby’s name.. Well. What the hell! Why are we discussing it even though my tummy is not big enough… Damn… lol… But at least he made me laugh and forget all my problems…
But my terror and villainous mom always ruined our settled decisions… I thought we were already clear with each other that she’ll not help me with even a single coin…
Then and there, she threatened me that she will file my boyfriend a case.. a lifetime sentence, she added.. (What kind of mother do you think my mom is?) If she does… What will happen to me and to my baby if he gets imprisoned? I thought my mom is smart.. She still had her idiot and moron side… Now my dad in Dubai is very worried bout my situation… I think many of my relatives knew about the situation… As of now, we were just friends… We broke up… And I thought the reason was my mom… But he told me that he will support our baby… So risky life of mine… I think not all were yet ready to accept it…
But for me… I know God gave me this challenge cause He knows that I can do this…
