Soon, I’ll get my diploma and face the real world. Can’t believe that soon I’ll be a mother. My boyfriend and I decided to keep our baby. He told me that he will never run away and he will be glad to face the consequences because I’m the mother of his child. Actually, like what I’ve said, he trapped me. He knows that the moment that I graduated from our school, our communication will be less and he’s afraid of losing me so he got me pregnant. Let’s just say that it’s his assurance of having me in his life…

Somehow I’m glad because he will not run. Actually, he’s a varsity of track and field, he’s really a runner.. hahaha… He’s a little bit popular in our school and there’re many rumors about him. My friends told me that he’s a two-timer and a cheater… Sometimes, I have a hard time sleeping thinking of us, on what will happen to our baby and if he’ll be loyal to me…

Its like I’m also scared of losing him or the thoughts of cheating always makes me wonder. We have several fights about some girls in our school. Its like I always suspect him of cheating without that hard proof but then deep inside, there’s a premonition that tells me that he soon he’ll cheat or he’s cheating on me but then I have no hard proof..

Please give me advice, am I just jealous because I’m pregnant? Or I’m just insecure?

Anyway, my parents still didn’t know that I’m pregnant but then they knew my boyfriend… I don’t know how to tell it to my mom. Sometimes, I’m thinking of Abortion but knowing that it is a crime, I know I can’t do it…