Alright… It’s been 2 years since my daughter died.

Daily, I always struggle with SOMETHING… Either someone said the wrong thing, or I hear songs that I associate with Keagan, or I just… Yeah, there’s always something. Well…I have best friends, and they all have kids too… which sometimes makes me feel worse, but then again, I accept that Keagan wasn’t ready to be anything but a Momma’s Angel… But Other times, I get jealous. Like, I don’t wanna talk to anyone jealous…

Today, my friend found out she’s pregnant, again. She’s a year younger than me, with a daughter 11 months old…and it made me sooooooooo angry! But, she said the most off-the wall thing… She asked if I could adopt it… “it” being a girl, too…
What do you say to that? Really? She gave me a lawyer’s number, and said she was willing…
Today was weird, and I’ve been crying all day. As much as I’d love to help my friend, and help a baby who would otherwise be… I mean, what…? I’m unsure… Keagan may be gone, but she isn’t replaceable, and I feel that if I say yes, then I’m partially just going to mask the real problem…

Not sure…