Couple of months have passed, I’m 14 now. I’ve decided for sure I want a baby. I wanna love somebody of my own.

People don’t realize how hard it is. I want a baby for myself. someone to have and hold. I’ve been thinking a lot about this. My mom thinks I’m dumb to think about that stuff at my age. I can’t help it. I try so hard to erase it outta my mind. I know it’s gonna change all my future plans for college and job as an actress. I just don’t know what to do anymore.

I’m about to break down and give up.